To my beautiful twin sister,
Live,
live.
Live.
Live,,
live.
Live.
Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.
Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.
Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.
Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.
Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.
Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.Fucking live rather than to succumb to mere existence.
LIVE..
GET UP
LIVE.
SEEK.
FIND.
LIVE.
LOVE.
BE MORE, FEEL MORE, SEE MORE, MORE, MORE,
BE MORE
PRIDE.PRIDE.PRIDE.PRIDE.PRIDE.
SUCCESS.SUCCESS.SUCCESS.SUCCESS.
AMBITION 01010000100100010100101010101010
Soak up that boredom babe
1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
Tian? No dice.
Tian? No dice.
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?
Incorrect!
Incorrect!
3. Have you taken someones virginity?
Yeah.. Never again.
4. Is trust a big issue for you?
Um, not really actually.
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?
The person I like is actually non - existant.
6. What are you excited for?
PYRAMID ROCK, FUCK.
7. What happened tonight?
Nothing, I napped, watched American Pie, talked on the phone and Youtube'd shit.
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?
No.
9. Is confidence cute?
I guess, yeah.
10. What is the last beverage you had?
Tea.
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
A couple.
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Yeah.
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?
Rahrahrah.
14. What are you going to spend money on next?
Cigarettes/food.
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?
Nope.
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?
No.
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
Darcie and Natty.
18. The last time you felt broken?
Ages ago.
19. Have you had sex today?
Nope.
20. Are you starting to realize anything?
Sort of yeah.
21. Are you in a good mood?
Yep.
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?
I don't know actually.
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?
I don't have the same eye colour as anybody but my twin sister!
24. What do you want right this second?
Tea, cig.
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?
Non - existant.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
Half of it is haha.
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
No haha.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
I don't know, I wrote 'haha' on the previous two questions but I didn't literally laugh.
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?
Yes.
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?
I believe so.
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
Absolutely adore him.
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?
Fuckin shut up.
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
No. Hahaha shit.
34. Listening to?
Your Kisses - Daughter.
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?
Does white pencil count?
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?
In bed, it's past his bed time.
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
I believe in luck.. Close enough.
If you look at some one and you're like "damn, he's/she's the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen" and you eventually get to know them and you're still "in love", I'd say that's luck.
38. Who did you last call?
Steph.
Steph.
39. Who was the last person you danced with?
I don't know.
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Because he's good looking and we occasionally have sex.
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?
Ages ago.
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?
I don't actually do that.
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?
Yes.
44. Do you tan in the nude?
Sometimes.
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?
Nope, it was nice.
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
They talked to me until they fell asleep? I never fall asleep talking to somebody.. I go to sleep way too late for the other person to be up.
47. Who was the last person to call you?
Darchole.
48. Do you sing in the shower?
Sometimes.
49. Do you dance in the car?
Taxi's brahhhhhhh.
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?
Archery on year five and six camps.
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
School photos? Haha
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?
I love musicals... Except Sweeney Todd, I wasn't prepared enough to watch it.
53. Is Christmas stressful?
THE FESTIVE SEASON IS SO STRESSFUL.
54. Ever eat a pierogi?
What?
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?
No.
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
"Zoo keeper", "shop keeper", "professional basketballer/athlete".
57. Do you believe in ghosts?
Yeah.
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
Nope.
59. Take a vitamin daily?
Nah.
60. Wear slippers?
Ugg boots?
61. Wear a bath robe?
Dressing gown? I'm wearing one now.
62. What do you wear to bed?
Pyjamas or nothing at all.
63. First concert?
U2? I think in grade five.
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Target.
65. Nike or Adidas?
Nike.
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?
Sorry?
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
Sunflower seeds mmmmmmm.
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?
You Belong To Me.
69. Ever take dance lessons?
Yes.
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
A writer/travel journalist?
71. Can you curl your tongue?
Yeah.
72. Ever won a spelling bee?
Yeah
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
Yeah, fuck that was weird.
74. What is your favorite book?
Sophie's World, Engulfed In Flames.
75. Do you study better with or without music?
I don't study so I can't answer this question ha.
76. Regularly burn incense?
Nope.
77. Ever been in love?
Ney.
78. Who would you like to see in concert?
- Radiohead
- Bon Iver
- Slipknot
- SOAD
- Crystal Castles
- The Kooks
and a couple more that I've already seen.
79. What was the last concert you saw?
Dallas Green....... YUM
80. Hot tea or cold tea?
BOTH.
81. Tea or coffee?
BOTH.
82. Favorite type of cookie?
I don't.
83. Can you swim well?
I'm alright yeah.
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
Yeah.
85. Are you patient?
Nope.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?
Both, probably a band.
87. Ever won a contest?
Never.
88. Ever have plastic surgery?
Nope.
89. Which are better black or green olives?
Green stuffed mmmmmm...
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?
GO FOR IT.
91. Best room for a fireplace?
The library in a house.
92. Do you want to get married
I don't actually know, I don't think so.
Long ass quiz because I’m suffocating with boredom.
1 - My best friends are:
Natalija, Darcie, Monique, Rosario, Tian, Joel.
2 - What I hate most about myself.
My ability to fuck good things up and my incompetence at school.
3 - What I love most about myself.
My height, my thighs and my ability to look on the brighter side of things.
4 - What I’m really good at.
Speaking my mind, art & English, chemistry & physics. Being lazy and stubborn.
5 - What I’m really bad at.
Viscom, making friends, saving money, going to school and getting a job.
6 - Biggest turn ons.
Intelligence, being a gentleman, knowing what they want, aspirations, nice hair, teeth and fashion, politeness, confidence, a nice fragrance, laid back. SUITS.
7 - Biggest turn offs.
Judgement, narrow-minded, sexism, stupidity.
8 - What I want to be when I get older:
A journalist, an artist, a scientist of some kind.
9 - My relationship with my sibling(s)
My twin sister and I are very close, she is my best friend and definitely one of the best people I know. My older sister and I are rather close though sex, drugs and illegal fun is off bounds in conversation.
10 - My relationship with my parents:
My father and I are close, we share the same share in music, a lot of the same outlooks and we both have a close idea of "fun" and "chilling out". He's young and still acts like a child so him and I get along real well. As for my mother, since my dad and her split up I only talk to her over Facebook and email. She won't give me her number or address due to a "sense of security within herself". We don't talk often but when we do, she's pretty ballin' and she just wants me to make the most of life and do what I want.. Which is cool, so I respect that. Although, she is selling her half of the house so now we have to out our house up for sale. Absolute ballocks.
11 - My idea of a perfect date.
Going out to dinner at the Yarra. He pays, pulls out my seat and gives me his jacket when we're walking back to the train station. We get back to his and have a bubble bath, with candles surrounding and Bon Iver or Dallas Green playing quietly. We get out of the bath, put on our underwear and head to the lounge room. We watch an old, black and white, romantic film in front of a wood-ignited fire, whilst cuddling with doonas and pillows everywhere. Then to bed we cuddle and talk about the best of the most pointless things in life. We then finish the night off with some love making and fall asleep cuddling.
I know, I'm fantasising, I'm a romantic but it seems so good!
If not this, to the other extreme:
We go out for dinner at a tacky Asian restaurant or we order noodle in a box and eat in. We watch star wars, lord of the rings or all the Harry Potters. The rest is the same as above. :)
God, I can be gay sometimes. This is all during Winter by the way.
12 - My biggest pet peeves.
People who put people down for who they are. Racists. Sexists. Feminists. People who give girls shit for smoking.
13 - A description of the boy I like.
I don't like anybody, unfortunately.
14 - A description of the person I dislike the most.
My grandmother's husband. He's violent, an asshole, narrow-minded, and a little bitch.
15 - A reason I’ve lied to a friend.
Because I want to smoke a joint on my own or with Natalija, not with him but that's the last time I remember lying to a friend.
16 - Where I have lived before.
I have lived in Melbourne my entire life, unfortunately but yet so fortunate at the same time.
17 - A description of the family I want to have when I’m older.
Who said I wanted a family?
18 - What my greatest achievements are.
I have completed up to year 10 secondary education, that's it. Oh, and I cheated death once or twice.
19 - What I hate the most about school.
The structure, the constant surrounding of people whom I know the voices of, getting out of bed, choosing what to wear, the stress and anxiety, the essays, the homework.
20 - How my last kiss when down.
Since no one reads this, I might as well say.
My ex-boyfriends sort of ex-best friend came to pick me up after numerous occasions. We were laying down on his back seat, him on top of me, his arms around me. He levers up, looks at me, grabs my head and kisses me. Good sex followed.
21 - Most embarrassing moment.
Most-of-recent embarrassing moment was that my English teacher asked me "what are you going to eat today, Brianna?" I said to him, "um... I have no idea" as the thought of food has not been of any concern just of then. He responds back to me, "Hungry Jacks? Maccas?" I looked at him in confusion as to why he's so concerned with what the hell I was going to eat, "um.." I said, but before I could continue he says, "or you're just not going to eat at all." The tone in his voice made it clear this was a statement not a question and the fact that he looked me up and down and turned away as soon as he said it was reiterating. I really don't eat anymore and the fact he made the whole class realise my weight and diet issue was so very embarrassing.
22 - What my last text message says.
Oh it's a long one. I'll give you snippets:
- "I'm going to be a grumpy boy in the morning."
- "The toastier it is, the better it is."
- "It's all just a load of bullshit."
- "Unless they're funny, if they're funny then that's okay :)"
23 - What words upset me the most.
"You're ignorant", "you're lazy", "stab", "you are so smart, so why do you do this?", "you are a very bright girl but...", "you can do better than this", "I'm sorry", "bickering", "I hate gays", "homophobe", "____ died".
24 - What words make me the best about myself.
"You are so intelligent".
25 - A description of my self-esteem.
I am confident with who I am but something's that are physical get me down... But alcohol fixes that problem.
26 - A description of my best friend.
I could choose either Natty or Darcie because I think they're the closest I have. Either or, they're both very similar. They both let us drag down eachother, they're both so very trustworthy, they both let us drown ourselves in our own sorrow, they both have awesome music taste and an outlook of life. They're both just so, insanely cool.
27 - The reason behind my last break up.
Well with Mitchell, I was only seeing him and he seems a little to far fetched from intelligence. With Alex, shit was just so messed up between him and I.
28 - My favourite songs right now.Could never choose.
Anything by Balmorhea, The Middle East, Jeff Buckley, Radiohead, The Violent Femmes, Boy and Bear, Mumford and Sons, Smashing Pumpkins, Dallas Green, Bon Iver.
29 - A wish that I’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11.
That I can get to sleep at a reasonable time.
30 - An internal conflict I have with myself.
"Just please go to school.", "go and get healthy", "stop being so damn lazy!", "stop sleeping so much!" and the biggest everyday conflict that I can't handle, "GO TO SLEEP EARLIER TONIGHT".
31 - The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me.
"You are the reason to every conflict in this family.", "You don't deserve anything, shelter, education, food, water. Nothing. You are a worthless piece of shit, Brianna". I still remember that last one word for word and it was two years ago.
32 - The sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me.
I can't pick the sweetest. Someone once said to me, "I am so proud of you Bree". "I actually have faith in her", "you are of absolute amazement", "you are the definition of perfect" "... You are goddess". "you've got really good music taste", and "you're actually the only two I can be around when I'm angry at everything AND you're just so fun to be around."
Natalija, Darcie, Monique, Rosario, Tian, Joel.
2 - What I hate most about myself.
My ability to fuck good things up and my incompetence at school.
3 - What I love most about myself.
My height, my thighs and my ability to look on the brighter side of things.
4 - What I’m really good at.
Speaking my mind, art & English, chemistry & physics. Being lazy and stubborn.
5 - What I’m really bad at.
Viscom, making friends, saving money, going to school and getting a job.
6 - Biggest turn ons.
Intelligence, being a gentleman, knowing what they want, aspirations, nice hair, teeth and fashion, politeness, confidence, a nice fragrance, laid back. SUITS.
7 - Biggest turn offs.
Judgement, narrow-minded, sexism, stupidity.
8 - What I want to be when I get older:
A journalist, an artist, a scientist of some kind.
9 - My relationship with my sibling(s)
My twin sister and I are very close, she is my best friend and definitely one of the best people I know. My older sister and I are rather close though sex, drugs and illegal fun is off bounds in conversation.
10 - My relationship with my parents:
My father and I are close, we share the same share in music, a lot of the same outlooks and we both have a close idea of "fun" and "chilling out". He's young and still acts like a child so him and I get along real well. As for my mother, since my dad and her split up I only talk to her over Facebook and email. She won't give me her number or address due to a "sense of security within herself". We don't talk often but when we do, she's pretty ballin' and she just wants me to make the most of life and do what I want.. Which is cool, so I respect that. Although, she is selling her half of the house so now we have to out our house up for sale. Absolute ballocks.
11 - My idea of a perfect date.
Going out to dinner at the Yarra. He pays, pulls out my seat and gives me his jacket when we're walking back to the train station. We get back to his and have a bubble bath, with candles surrounding and Bon Iver or Dallas Green playing quietly. We get out of the bath, put on our underwear and head to the lounge room. We watch an old, black and white, romantic film in front of a wood-ignited fire, whilst cuddling with doonas and pillows everywhere. Then to bed we cuddle and talk about the best of the most pointless things in life. We then finish the night off with some love making and fall asleep cuddling.
I know, I'm fantasising, I'm a romantic but it seems so good!
If not this, to the other extreme:
We go out for dinner at a tacky Asian restaurant or we order noodle in a box and eat in. We watch star wars, lord of the rings or all the Harry Potters. The rest is the same as above. :)
God, I can be gay sometimes. This is all during Winter by the way.
12 - My biggest pet peeves.
People who put people down for who they are. Racists. Sexists. Feminists. People who give girls shit for smoking.
13 - A description of the boy I like.
I don't like anybody, unfortunately.
14 - A description of the person I dislike the most.
My grandmother's husband. He's violent, an asshole, narrow-minded, and a little bitch.
15 - A reason I’ve lied to a friend.
Because I want to smoke a joint on my own or with Natalija, not with him but that's the last time I remember lying to a friend.
16 - Where I have lived before.
I have lived in Melbourne my entire life, unfortunately but yet so fortunate at the same time.
17 - A description of the family I want to have when I’m older.
Who said I wanted a family?
18 - What my greatest achievements are.
I have completed up to year 10 secondary education, that's it. Oh, and I cheated death once or twice.
19 - What I hate the most about school.
The structure, the constant surrounding of people whom I know the voices of, getting out of bed, choosing what to wear, the stress and anxiety, the essays, the homework.
20 - How my last kiss when down.
Since no one reads this, I might as well say.
My ex-boyfriends sort of ex-best friend came to pick me up after numerous occasions. We were laying down on his back seat, him on top of me, his arms around me. He levers up, looks at me, grabs my head and kisses me. Good sex followed.
21 - Most embarrassing moment.
Most-of-recent embarrassing moment was that my English teacher asked me "what are you going to eat today, Brianna?" I said to him, "um... I have no idea" as the thought of food has not been of any concern just of then. He responds back to me, "Hungry Jacks? Maccas?" I looked at him in confusion as to why he's so concerned with what the hell I was going to eat, "um.." I said, but before I could continue he says, "or you're just not going to eat at all." The tone in his voice made it clear this was a statement not a question and the fact that he looked me up and down and turned away as soon as he said it was reiterating. I really don't eat anymore and the fact he made the whole class realise my weight and diet issue was so very embarrassing.
22 - What my last text message says.
Oh it's a long one. I'll give you snippets:
- "I'm going to be a grumpy boy in the morning."
- "The toastier it is, the better it is."
- "It's all just a load of bullshit."
- "Unless they're funny, if they're funny then that's okay :)"
23 - What words upset me the most.
"You're ignorant", "you're lazy", "stab", "you are so smart, so why do you do this?", "you are a very bright girl but...", "you can do better than this", "I'm sorry", "bickering", "I hate gays", "homophobe", "____ died".
24 - What words make me the best about myself.
"You are so intelligent".
25 - A description of my self-esteem.
I am confident with who I am but something's that are physical get me down... But alcohol fixes that problem.
26 - A description of my best friend.
I could choose either Natty or Darcie because I think they're the closest I have. Either or, they're both very similar. They both let us drag down eachother, they're both so very trustworthy, they both let us drown ourselves in our own sorrow, they both have awesome music taste and an outlook of life. They're both just so, insanely cool.
27 - The reason behind my last break up.
Well with Mitchell, I was only seeing him and he seems a little to far fetched from intelligence. With Alex, shit was just so messed up between him and I.
28 - My favourite songs right now.Could never choose.
Anything by Balmorhea, The Middle East, Jeff Buckley, Radiohead, The Violent Femmes, Boy and Bear, Mumford and Sons, Smashing Pumpkins, Dallas Green, Bon Iver.
29 - A wish that I’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11.
That I can get to sleep at a reasonable time.
30 - An internal conflict I have with myself.
"Just please go to school.", "go and get healthy", "stop being so damn lazy!", "stop sleeping so much!" and the biggest everyday conflict that I can't handle, "GO TO SLEEP EARLIER TONIGHT".
31 - The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me.
"You are the reason to every conflict in this family.", "You don't deserve anything, shelter, education, food, water. Nothing. You are a worthless piece of shit, Brianna". I still remember that last one word for word and it was two years ago.
32 - The sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me.
I can't pick the sweetest. Someone once said to me, "I am so proud of you Bree". "I actually have faith in her", "you are of absolute amazement", "you are the definition of perfect" "... You are goddess". "you've got really good music taste", and "you're actually the only two I can be around when I'm angry at everything AND you're just so fun to be around."
www.bridiewhite.blogspot.com.au YES PLEASE
Well, I have decided that my whole, 'new blog' approach is or was ridiculous.. I can't ever run away from my past but only - as they say, 'learn from your mistakes'. To be simple, blunt and maybe a tad vengeful; I feel somewhat ashamed by what I have written on here. Although I have some regretful memories on here, the beauty and poetic lines I have improvised make me feel a little more comfortable - A little more at home and feeling that gives me a little sense of security within myself and for myself. Well, now, I'm contemplating whether I should get back to Dustychairs or stay with my long lost sister, Bridie White.. I'll let you know when I decide.
Brianna; over and out..
Brianna; over and out..
BOREDOM KILL ME NOW
On a scale from one to ten, how happy are you?
A solid 8.68.. :D
Have you ever cried uncontrollably on a friend’s shoulder before?
Uncontrollably.. No.
Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you are now?
No, it's better than I thought.
Do you remember who you had feelings for December 2008?
I do remember, I didn't like anybody then.
Is there that one guy/girl that you’ll always have feelings for no matter what?
I believe not.
Who were you last in a car with?
PAPAAAAAAAAAA.
What color was the last pill you took?
White.
Has more than one person ever told you they’re in love with you?
Yes..............................
When is the next time you will leave your house?
Tomorrow morning.
Has someone ever called you at midnight on your birthday?
Yeah! How cute.
When was the last time you saw your mum?
Last Friday but before that... Six months prior :(
Who has the ability to hurt you the most emotionally?
My dad and sisters.
Would you ever be a stripper?
Nah.
Would you rather someone lie to protect you or be honest and hurt you?
Be honest, I guess.
Do you have feelings for anyone?
Yeahhhhhh.
How many people have you had strong feelings for in the year of 2010?
Twooooooooo.
In the next 48 hours will you hang out with a guy?
Yes sirrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yeah man
Does the person you have feelings for start with any of these letters: B, L, D, or M?
M, Mitchellllllllllllllll.
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
MY FUCKING VISCOM HOMEWORK. #sucidalxox
Did you have an exciting weekend?
Yeah it was fun.
What did you look like the last time you kissed someone?
Good? I always look good.............
When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
A while ago now.
How many hours did you sleep last night?
Not much at all.. I never sleep much.
How often do you sleep in?
A sleep in is past 9am (school) for me.. So Monday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
Still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
I don't even understand that question.
Within the next 6 months, what are you looking forward to MOST?
A FUCKING HOLIDAY.
What are your plans for tomorrow?
School until 12:30pm, get my exit forms signed from Strathmore and then coffee with mitchhhhhhhh.
Are you more of an outspoken person or a quiet one?
I'd be both, I'd say...
Is there anybody you truly hate?
I'm not sure.
Would you ever consider going to college for the Fashion industry?
I have thought about it.
Do you enjoy Disney movies?
Sometimes yeah.
When was the last time you shed a tear? And why?
Yesterday? Something in my eye...
What should you be doing right now?
Nothing, it's free play for Breezie at the moment so it's anything I want or... Anything I want.
What are you craving right now?
A big, fat, motherfucking J
Who has been there the most out of your friends?
Natty has stuck with me through thick and thin. Rosario and especially Riley.
Who could you say has seen you at your worse?
Dad, mum Steph and Chloe.
Think of the last person who hurt you, do you forgive them?
Not really, no.
Is the last person you texted dating you?
Dating.. No. Seeing.. Yes.
Are you counting down for anything?
Nah, life's a breeze at the moment..
What is something you currently want right now?
Good food and a cigarette.
If you could go anywhere right now where would it be?
RAILAY, Russia, France, England.
What is the closest thing to you that is blue?
Pen.
Do you think it’s weird for someone to have never tried Coke-a-cola?
Yes! Holy fuck
Who knows the most about you (besides yourself)?
Darcie, Natty? I don't know. Steph defffffz.
Do you have a nervous habit? (e.g. biting nails, tapping feet, smoking)
Smoking.. But I don't do that when I'm nervous.
Have you ever broken into someone’s house?
Nah.
Who was your last text from?
Mitchell.
Would/have you ever kiss your best friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend?
No way.
Have you ever had a girl best friend?
Yeah.
What about a boy best friend?
Yeah!
Do you miss the way things used to be?
A big part of it yeah but I'm getting used to it now.. And I kind of feel guilty for that.
Today did you hug a person you have feelings for?
Nope, didn't see him.. :(
Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
Yeah!
What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?
Make a wish…
Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out of your life?
Yeah, I don't want my family and friends to fade out.
Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yeah but I'm trying to learn not to.
Would you date a 13 year old at the age you are now?
Definitely a no.
How often do you drink energy drinks?
I don't really like them at all.
Are you currently looking for a significant other?
Not looking.
You’re trapped in a room for 3 days with the person you fell the hardest for, any problems?
Hardest for.. Again WTF?
How was your day overall?
Actually pretty fucking wonderful.
Is tanning your thing?
I guess if a good conversation is going on with my friends or I've got a lot on my mind then yeah.. I enjoy it.
When was the last time you showered?
Last nyt.
Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?
Haha not seriously.
Do you want to be single?
I likeeeeeee him soooo..
When’s the last time you were kissed on the cheek/lips?
Cheek.. Today.. Everyday lol but lips on ze weekend.
When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Today.. Everything was just.. Funny?
Who did you last sleep in the same bed with?
Mitchell.
Last four people to text you?
Mitchell, Joel, Darcie and Daddddddy.
Last three things you had to drink?
Coffee, coke and more coffee.
+ Solo.
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
Verdant Crown on my feet or behind my neck.
Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
Yeah kill meeeeee.
Where do you want to live when you grow up?
Railay.. But that's like retirement shit.. Madrid or London when I'm GROWING up.
Think back five months ago, were you single?
Sorta no but yes?
Does anyone completely understand you?
Yeah and it kinda creeps me out.
It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings who is it?
BEN O'LOUGHLIN.. Jesus Christ, he has this knack of calling me in the early hours of the morn.
What do you own with zebra print on it?
Noooope.
You just drank 15 shots, what would you be doing?
On the floor, vomitting or passed out. Or just having a fucking good time :)
Whats your favorite type of flower?
I do like roses.. Like all the funky coloured ones and dark red hoomggggg x
JUST SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD BOREDOM
1. What is your best friends name?
I have a few besties thank you very much.
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
WHITE. Oh racist me..
3. What are you listening to right now?
Sak Noel
4. Whats your favorite number?
7 !
2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
WHITE. Oh racist me..
3. What are you listening to right now?
Sak Noel
4. Whats your favorite number?
7 !
5. What was the last thing you ate?
Lord of the fries! WEWWWWWWW
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Lol shut up, shit question. Moving on...
7. How is the weather right now?
Absolutely brilliant.
8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
My papa!
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Whatever stands out the most.
10. Do you have a significant other?
Significant other... Sounds pretty lame.
11. Favorite TV show?
Two and a half men, pretty little liars, misfits, dexter, toddlers and tiaras, dance moms.
12. Siblings?
Two sisters... One's a twin and one is 20.
13. Height?
173cm motherf'errrrrrr
14. Hair color?
blonde with a tinge of pink.
15. Eye Color?
green.
16. Do you wear contacts?
no siree.
17. Favorite Holiday?
i've had plenty. but phuket with ma cousins.
18. Month?
late december, early jan.
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
no. why would you even do that?
20. What was the last movie you watched?
i can't remember.
21. Favorite Day of the Year?
new years eve or the weekend around my birthday.. so much money.. so much alcohol.
22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
i don't ask anybody out.
23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
i actually used to be able to.
24. Hugs or Kisses?
i like both.
25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
depends with what..........
26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
respond..
27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?
my friends..
28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?
people who are not my friends..
29. What books are you reading?
catcher in the rye.
30. Piercings?
zero. i need some, ive been missing them.
31. Favorite movies?
donnie darko, man on fire, silence of the lambs and a few romantic ones.
32. Favorite football Team?
hawthorn haha i'm wearing a hawks beanie as we speak...
33. What are you doing right now?
THIS, YOU DUMB MOTHERFUCKERRRRRRR.
34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
butter and salted.. mmmm....
37. Dogs or cats?
dogs.. I have a kitten and i still like my dog more.. even though i hate her.
38. Favorite flower?
rose probz.
39. Been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to do?
of course i have.
40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
yeah i'm with one of them now.
41. Have you ever loved someone?
yeah man.
42. Who would you like to see right now?
party ppl.
43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
sort of.
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
no
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
well only because it's quicker than walking... or driving.
46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
right.
47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
two but i don't use them.
48. Are you missing someone?
yeah!
49. Do you have a tattoo?
nah i'm getting one though.
50. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?
LUCAS VERCETTI. Yeah...........
FULFILL MY NIGHT PLZ
1. Sexuality?
Pretty straight.
2. Insecurities?
I'm not too sure..
3. Best memory?
Stupid question, everybody knows that it is way too hard just to choose one.
4. Worst memory?
Wowwwwwwwww.
5. Last person you kissed?
Mitchelllllllllll.
6. Why?
Cos we have somefing goin' oooooooooooown.
7. Last thing you fantasized about?
Sex.. Probably.
8. Greatest fears?
The unknown, heights (falling/bone crushing pain)
9. How did you change over the last 3 years?
Not much things but at the same time, quite a few things.
10 .What do you want more than anything?
My Christmas to be how it was in prior years but that's never gonna happen and I'm quite bummed out about that to be quite frank.
11. Bad habit?
- Saying, "ahh.. That's funny"
- Coffee
- CIGARETTES
- And my craving to have fun.
12. Crush?
"crush"? Mitchell.
13. Virgin?
Nah.
14. Biggest regrets?
A person
15. Wildest thing you’ve ever done?
There's a few most involve being naked.
16. Hottest teacher at your school?
There is never a hot teacher.
17. Where do you see yourself in 5+ years?
Working, university and having a gewwwwwwd time.
18. Favourite band?
I don't have a favourite band.
19. Worst thing you’ve ever said to your mother?
That I hate her and wish she wasn't my mother.
20. Weirdest dream?
I can't be bothered explaining.
Pretty straight.
2. Insecurities?
I'm not too sure..
3. Best memory?
Stupid question, everybody knows that it is way too hard just to choose one.
4. Worst memory?
Wowwwwwwwww.
5. Last person you kissed?
Mitchelllllllllll.
6. Why?
Cos we have somefing goin' oooooooooooown.
7. Last thing you fantasized about?
Sex.. Probably.
8. Greatest fears?
The unknown, heights (falling/bone crushing pain)
9. How did you change over the last 3 years?
Not much things but at the same time, quite a few things.
10 .What do you want more than anything?
My Christmas to be how it was in prior years but that's never gonna happen and I'm quite bummed out about that to be quite frank.
11. Bad habit?
- Saying, "ahh.. That's funny"
- Coffee
- CIGARETTES
- And my craving to have fun.
12. Crush?
"crush"? Mitchell.
13. Virgin?
Nah.
14. Biggest regrets?
A person
15. Wildest thing you’ve ever done?
There's a few most involve being naked.
16. Hottest teacher at your school?
There is never a hot teacher.
17. Where do you see yourself in 5+ years?
Working, university and having a gewwwwwwd time.
18. Favourite band?
I don't have a favourite band.
19. Worst thing you’ve ever said to your mother?
That I hate her and wish she wasn't my mother.
20. Weirdest dream?
I can't be bothered explaining.
Oh, the killer of all sorts of boredom.
2. Do you regret your last relationship? Yes.
3. Do you believe in God? No.
4. Who did you last say “I love you” to? Can't remember.
5. Do you regret it?
6. Have you ever been depressed? Yusss, sucked
7. Have a best friend? Sure do, many.
8. Are you a boy or girl? Girl
9. What is your relationship status? Um, I don't know how to put it.
10. How do you want to die? I don't even care cos in the end, I'm just a dead motherfucker who will have no idea how I died once I'm dead!
11. When was your last non-physical fight? Not sure?
12. Do you have an attitude? Hardly.
20. Do you hate anyone at the moment? No bingooooo.
21. Do you miss someone? Yes! Mamma :(
22. Right or left handed? Right babyyyyy.
23. Do you tan a lot? I can only try :(
24. Have any pets? A dog and a rabbit.
25. How exactly are you feeling? I am feeling magnificent, thank yeeewwww.
26. Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Yes? Lol
27. Ever made out in a bathroom? Um yes, I have.
28. Would you take any of your exs back? No.
29. Are you scared of spiders? Some.
30. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Yes but a year and a half ago.
31. Do you regret anything in your past? Fucking yesssssss.
32. What are your plans for this weekend? Oh, just Dylan and I have a drinking challenge.. Nothin' much.
33. Do you want to have kids? No thanks.
34. Ever kissed somebody that name starts with an D? I don't know haha.
35. Do you type fast? Yes I can.
36. Can you spell well? Brilliant at spelling.
37. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes!
38. What are you craving right now? A cigarette.
39. Ever been to a bonfire party? Used to have them every weekend... Miss that shit x
40. Been on a monkey? No, but a monkey has been on me
41. Kissed someone in a lifted truck? Only in the back of a moving truck.
42. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Apparently.
43. Who was the last person of the opposite sex to sleep in your bed? I don't know actually.
44. Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Yep haha.
45. What are your plans for tomorrow? Two exams, Puckle Street and massive chills.
46. Would you live with someone without marrying them? Yes, I don't even want to get married but I don't want to live alone.
47. What should you be doing? Sleeping.
48. What’s irritating you right now? My tiredness levels.
49. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt? No. Does that question mean that they haven't liked you back? Like, that's why it hurt? Because that's never happened to me, weird? I know, lucky? So it seems..
50. Is somebody in love with you? I don't fink sooooo
51. What is your favorite color? I don't have one.. Probably never will.
52. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yes.
53. Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink? No.
54. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? My dad yeah.
55. Who do you admire the most? Oh... Just some certain things of some certain people.
56. Do you believe your most recent ex still likes you?Don't know, don't care.
57. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Um, people - was of laughter.
58. Who’s the last person you hugged? I duno? Rosie?
59. Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive.
60. Is this year the best year of your life? No. Far from it.
61. What was your childhood nickname? Bru.
62. Have you ever walked outside completely naked? Yes sir.
63. Do you think you’re a good person? Yes, I do.
64. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Sort of.
65. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Had a cigarette.
66. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Nope.
67. What is bothering you? I want to see my Mamma.
68. Have you ever been out of the country? Numerous times.
69. Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now? Possibly? I don't know
70. Do you always answer your phone? Yes, but when I'm sleeping only sometimes.
71. Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Stephy.
72. How is the weather right now? Fine. Cold.
73. This time last year what was your love life like? Great.
74. How’s your heart lately? Fantastic.
75. How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average? Average? Once.
76. What song is stuck in your head right now?Nothing.
77. Any summer plans for 2012?PYRAMID ROCK AND FUCKING POREPUNKS
79. What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? heard some pretty neat stuff.
80. Do you ever think “what if” about anything? Hardly ever.
81. How long have you liked the person you like? Couple'a weeks.
82. Has anyone said they love you in the last week? Probz.
83. Does any part of your body hurt right now? Yes :(
84. Interested in anyone? Yes.
85. Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? Yeah, it actually would?
86. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Dylan.
87. Have you ever regretted letting someone go? Nah.
88. Has a song you’ve heard today reminded you of anyone? Yes.
89. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? Yes.
90. Did anything surprising happen today? Nah.
91. What’s the last thing that bothered you? Money.
92. How’s life treating you at the moment? Brilliantly.
93. How many people do you know with your name? None.
94. Would you rather watch football or baseball? None.
95. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?Depends what mood I'm in.
96. What’s something you really want right now, be honest: good chats with yewww.
97. Do you plan out your day before it begins? Only sometimes.
98. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? "Fucking not one part of me wants to go to this exam... Should I go?" I went.
99. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste? After the toothpaste otherwise my mouth burns.
100. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Other day mate
101. Did someone make you mad today? Yes.
104. Ever kissed someone who smokes? Yeah, majority of people.
105. Do you get ill easily? Nah, I have a killer immune system.
106. Where did you get the underwear you are wearing right now? Cotton On Body.
107. When is your birthday? 8th of May.
108. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Same thing I'm doing now - lying in bed, on Facebook and such.
109. How do you feel about the person who texted you last? I don't know who texted me last, my phone is getting fixed at the shop.
110. Have you ever been stoned with someone? Um yes lol.
111. Have you ever drank with the last person you kissed? Yeahhhhh.
112. Are you a jealous person? Hardly.
113. Are you tired right now? Getting there.
114. Do you chew on your straws? I do.
115. What’s your favorite room in your house? Mine.
116. How many children do you plan on having? None.
117. Is your hair curly? In between wavy and curly.
118. Last movie you went to see? I don't know.
119. Are you ashamed of your past? I have no shame m8.
120. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again? I want to so possibly.
121. Are you texting right now? No :(
3. Do you believe in God? No.
4. Who did you last say “I love you” to? Can't remember.
5. Do you regret it?
6. Have you ever been depressed? Yusss, sucked
7. Have a best friend? Sure do, many.
8. Are you a boy or girl? Girl
9. What is your relationship status? Um, I don't know how to put it.
10. How do you want to die? I don't even care cos in the end, I'm just a dead motherfucker who will have no idea how I died once I'm dead!
11. When was your last non-physical fight? Not sure?
12. Do you have an attitude? Hardly.
20. Do you hate anyone at the moment? No bingooooo.
21. Do you miss someone? Yes! Mamma :(
22. Right or left handed? Right babyyyyy.
23. Do you tan a lot? I can only try :(
24. Have any pets? A dog and a rabbit.
25. How exactly are you feeling? I am feeling magnificent, thank yeeewwww.
26. Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Yes? Lol
27. Ever made out in a bathroom? Um yes, I have.
28. Would you take any of your exs back? No.
29. Are you scared of spiders? Some.
30. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Yes but a year and a half ago.
31. Do you regret anything in your past? Fucking yesssssss.
32. What are your plans for this weekend? Oh, just Dylan and I have a drinking challenge.. Nothin' much.
33. Do you want to have kids? No thanks.
34. Ever kissed somebody that name starts with an D? I don't know haha.
35. Do you type fast? Yes I can.
36. Can you spell well? Brilliant at spelling.
37. Do you miss anyone from your past? Yes!
38. What are you craving right now? A cigarette.
39. Ever been to a bonfire party? Used to have them every weekend... Miss that shit x
40. Been on a monkey? No, but a monkey has been on me
41. Kissed someone in a lifted truck? Only in the back of a moving truck.
42. Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Apparently.
43. Who was the last person of the opposite sex to sleep in your bed? I don't know actually.
44. Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Yep haha.
45. What are your plans for tomorrow? Two exams, Puckle Street and massive chills.
46. Would you live with someone without marrying them? Yes, I don't even want to get married but I don't want to live alone.
47. What should you be doing? Sleeping.
48. What’s irritating you right now? My tiredness levels.
49. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt? No. Does that question mean that they haven't liked you back? Like, that's why it hurt? Because that's never happened to me, weird? I know, lucky? So it seems..
50. Is somebody in love with you? I don't fink sooooo
51. What is your favorite color? I don't have one.. Probably never will.
52. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Yes.
53. Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink? No.
54. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? My dad yeah.
55. Who do you admire the most? Oh... Just some certain things of some certain people.
56. Do you believe your most recent ex still likes you?Don't know, don't care.
57. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Um, people - was of laughter.
58. Who’s the last person you hugged? I duno? Rosie?
59. Is it easier to forgive or forget? Forgive.
60. Is this year the best year of your life? No. Far from it.
61. What was your childhood nickname? Bru.
62. Have you ever walked outside completely naked? Yes sir.
63. Do you think you’re a good person? Yes, I do.
64. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Sort of.
65. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? Had a cigarette.
66. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life? Nope.
67. What is bothering you? I want to see my Mamma.
68. Have you ever been out of the country? Numerous times.
69. Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now? Possibly? I don't know
70. Do you always answer your phone? Yes, but when I'm sleeping only sometimes.
71. Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? Stephy.
72. How is the weather right now? Fine. Cold.
73. This time last year what was your love life like? Great.
74. How’s your heart lately? Fantastic.
75. How many times do you talk on the phone a day on average? Average? Once.
76. What song is stuck in your head right now?Nothing.
77. Any summer plans for 2012?PYRAMID ROCK AND FUCKING POREPUNKS
79. What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? heard some pretty neat stuff.
80. Do you ever think “what if” about anything? Hardly ever.
81. How long have you liked the person you like? Couple'a weeks.
82. Has anyone said they love you in the last week? Probz.
83. Does any part of your body hurt right now? Yes :(
84. Interested in anyone? Yes.
85. Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? Yeah, it actually would?
86. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Dylan.
87. Have you ever regretted letting someone go? Nah.
88. Has a song you’ve heard today reminded you of anyone? Yes.
89. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? Yes.
90. Did anything surprising happen today? Nah.
91. What’s the last thing that bothered you? Money.
92. How’s life treating you at the moment? Brilliantly.
93. How many people do you know with your name? None.
94. Would you rather watch football or baseball? None.
95. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?Depends what mood I'm in.
96. What’s something you really want right now, be honest: good chats with yewww.
97. Do you plan out your day before it begins? Only sometimes.
98. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning? "Fucking not one part of me wants to go to this exam... Should I go?" I went.
99. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste? After the toothpaste otherwise my mouth burns.
100. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? Other day mate
101. Did someone make you mad today? Yes.
104. Ever kissed someone who smokes? Yeah, majority of people.
105. Do you get ill easily? Nah, I have a killer immune system.
106. Where did you get the underwear you are wearing right now? Cotton On Body.
107. When is your birthday? 8th of May.
108. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Same thing I'm doing now - lying in bed, on Facebook and such.
109. How do you feel about the person who texted you last? I don't know who texted me last, my phone is getting fixed at the shop.
110. Have you ever been stoned with someone? Um yes lol.
111. Have you ever drank with the last person you kissed? Yeahhhhh.
112. Are you a jealous person? Hardly.
113. Are you tired right now? Getting there.
114. Do you chew on your straws? I do.
115. What’s your favorite room in your house? Mine.
116. How many children do you plan on having? None.
117. Is your hair curly? In between wavy and curly.
118. Last movie you went to see? I don't know.
119. Are you ashamed of your past? I have no shame m8.
120. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again? I want to so possibly.
121. Are you texting right now? No :(
Title: "Trust No Man"
I hope you read this, okay? I have been trying to let little bits out to a few different people but I am just not satisfied. I promised myself that I wouldn't do this even though I promise myself, I can't trust myself anymore and that is because of you - you manipulative prick. This is the last time and the only time that I am going to let every thought out but this time I don't care if it makes sense or it sounds idiotic and wrong. I am not cocky, I just have a lot of dignity, self respect and faith in myself but who the fuck are you to try and thieve that away from me? And who the fuck are you to even say in the first place that you are "in love with me". Love isn't real, I'll tell you what's fucking real? Emotional attachment - that's what's fucking real, not this petty "I'm in love with you" act. You raped me from day one of the regretful three hundred and sixty five days, making sure I was all caught up with this unreal, lovey bullshit that I thought only existed in the movies and guess what? It only exists in the fucking movies. Three hundred and sixty five days is a fucking long time to lie and not just to me but to yourself and that my friend; is called the ultimate low. You planned to make me think I was in love with you and you were the only man for me but hey! A fucking round of an applause goes to you! You did it! You won! You manipulated me when I was most vulnerable; at my youth, to think that you were only a dream. Truth is, you're a fat, manipulative fucking asshole who would take any opportunity to take advantage of one if it benefitted you.
You're low and it's hard to say because I feel stupid for doing it in the first place but rest in peace, three hundred and sixty five days - you are nothing but a vague memory sitting in the bottom of a stale thought.
Give me my $100, shoes, clothes and year back, you heartless fucking paedophile. .
You're low and it's hard to say because I feel stupid for doing it in the first place but rest in peace, three hundred and sixty five days - you are nothing but a vague memory sitting in the bottom of a stale thought.
Give me my $100, shoes, clothes and year back, you heartless fucking paedophile. .
So I'm watching Blair Witch Project on 'Show Action' on Foxtel right? And the stupid bitch in this, well actually she is rather smart seeing as she made millions for this movie and it's all bullshit... Not the point but she says at the start of their journey, "it's pissing down rain and we can't even get a fire started". Like... No shit? Did you expect a fire to light in heavy rain? Does that usually happen for you? Fucking idiot bitchalsdkfjasdolfkaj;m.
All these posts prior to this, I know, I overexaggerated, I was lonely and now? I take it all back. Last night, it was the greatest night I've had within a year. This is meant to happen between you and I and I know I'll be better off without you and you will better off without me.
For I crave freedom.
For I crave freedom.
Eleven
Eleven months filled with painful romance and eleven months that I will never forget.
For now, I know this is for real.
Postsecret post:
Sometimes when guys hit on me, I act like I don't know what they're talking about because I'm not interested in them.
It's not nice when your twin sister treats you like you're a dog but if there's another person around, everybody is in such a better mood! Aren't they..? She doesn't listen and I've heard the, "just ignore it" phrase quite a bit or "she's a bitch too everyone". That's incorrect, you all obviously have no idea. And you know what? Just because we're twins doesn't mean you sit at neutrality and just sympathize and ask if I'm
okay.. Obviously I'm not. Fuckheads.
You are not a queen, Stephanie as I am not a 'worthless', 'hormonal bitch' and I definitely do deserve things such as a shelter and an education.
And a HUGE fuck you goes to you, don't ever expect me to do you good. I don't give two shits about you anymore, this has gone too far, you ungrateful, lying bitch.
okay.. Obviously I'm not. Fuckheads.
You are not a queen, Stephanie as I am not a 'worthless', 'hormonal bitch' and I definitely do deserve things such as a shelter and an education.
And a HUGE fuck you goes to you, don't ever expect me to do you good. I don't give two shits about you anymore, this has gone too far, you ungrateful, lying bitch.
When I say always, I'm not over exaggerating, I'm always being put the fuck down by the ones I love most and if it's not that, they don't ever listen to me, even in the simplest sense.
I was told to know my place by a couple of people in the past year or two and as a matter of fact; I know my place like the back of my hand, it's your fault that you're not happy with who I am.
And if you don't agree with what I feel, is there really any point carrying on? Because you can't argue with my emotions as I don't argue with yours.
I was told to know my place by a couple of people in the past year or two and as a matter of fact; I know my place like the back of my hand, it's your fault that you're not happy with who I am.
And if you don't agree with what I feel, is there really any point carrying on? Because you can't argue with my emotions as I don't argue with yours.
"I'm finding someone with so much hope.
I've met someone with so much heart.
She's more amazing than my dream woman.
She is the most beautiful woman anyone could lay their eyes on.
I'm falling in love with someone I know nothing about.
I'm 18 years old and I'm dreaming of marrying this girl already.
I see us, sitting on the couch with our children, watching family videos of when they were babies.
My heart hurts because I have no idea how she feels about me.
If I had a god, I would pray for his assistance.
I'm staring into a mirror with no reflection.
I'm empty, but I've seen something I've never seen before..
I see light surrounded by a black nothingness.
From that light, shapes are forming.
I'm going to say it, sooner or later I'm going to ruin a possible chance at real life.
I've convinced myself to tell her I love her.
Goodbye hope, goodbye chance.
We all know she would be out of her mind to touch me."
I've met someone with so much heart.
She's more amazing than my dream woman.
She is the most beautiful woman anyone could lay their eyes on.
I'm falling in love with someone I know nothing about.
I'm 18 years old and I'm dreaming of marrying this girl already.
I see us, sitting on the couch with our children, watching family videos of when they were babies.
My heart hurts because I have no idea how she feels about me.
If I had a god, I would pray for his assistance.
I'm staring into a mirror with no reflection.
I'm empty, but I've seen something I've never seen before..
I see light surrounded by a black nothingness.
From that light, shapes are forming.
I'm going to say it, sooner or later I'm going to ruin a possible chance at real life.
I've convinced myself to tell her I love her.
Goodbye hope, goodbye chance.
We all know she would be out of her mind to touch me."
Wow.
"Blogspot..
Tumblr..
The battle of each, which is best? Is it Tumblr people use for trends, good photographs and popularity? Or is it the privacy and freedom that authors get to write huge chunks of writing but still post pictures on their Blogspot? The pro's and cons of the mighty Blogspot [Blogger] versus the trendy, Tumblr. The whole aspect of writing what happened that day, what the fight you had with your boyfriend was about ect. ect. but Tumblr fans don't want to hear that shit from somebody they don't even know; gathering from the trend Tumblr contends. Or is it the pretty pictures and depressive text photographs that relate to majority of the depressed teens all over the world. There's love, phenomenal landmarks and wonders of the world, attractive people, sex, travelling, fancy bits and bobs for your house hold and fantastic architecture and art. Do these Tumblr fanatics plead it's a place where all beautiful things in the world meet, an company acknowledging the history and beauty of the planet? It is all that teens want, whereas, Blogspot, more personal, down to Earth - a journal-type of webpage. Do internet junkies call sympathy or are they fed up with their head flooding with events and thoughts? Either way, either perspective will be arresting.
Metaphor, STAMP: A married couple, 40 years of the same dick or 40 years of 150 different dicks? You know, they're pretty level and the decision is difficult. "
- A writer on Tumblr
Bits and bobs
Hi, well, I am in the mood to think about what's strange and just general shit about myself.. Strange to an extent, I guess. I will just probably list a few things here and there but then again, I will probably unintentionally elaborate on some. Anyway, here they are;
- I have a twin, I don't think that's strange to some people but she has red hair, looks nothing like me and she's my *identical* twin. [identical in medical terms]
- I love love love cigarettes; Peter Stuyvesants. How unfortunate that they go so quickly and they cost a shit load for just $25?
- I do not talk to my mother.. I don't know why, she's not involved with smack or anything..
- Dad has nifty new toy; his girlfriend, Is, Isabel or Issy, as dad calls her in his emails.
- Beanies and hats.. AWESOME
- Marijuana; my best-non-human friend.
- I don't like alcohol.. Like at all.
- My then-best friend almost killed me whilst being a tard but wasn't intending on killing me haha! Bitchy pig..
- I love photos, though, I'm not interested in being a photographer or even taking many photos much.
- If I feel I look good, I want to take pictures.
- My hands were sweaty, my head was boiling, my heart was pumping - I never expected it would or I would fall this far.
- I get unexpected outbursts of the need to clean and organise.. EVERYTHING but my room.
- Classical piano, acoustic guitar, orchestra.
- Radiohead, Smashing Pumpkins, No Doubt, Jeff Buckley.. Triple J for that fact.
- Whiny black men.. A huge no go.
- Harry Potter, Stephen King, Jostein Gaarder, Thriller
- ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX ALEX
- Sunrise, sunset.
- Thailand.
- Sex, pornography, pornographic GIFs.
- Tumblr; juz for da kewl picz
- Sluts, they're good to laugh at.
- Natalija, Steph, Rosario, Riley, Monique, Renny.
- MY PUPPY DOG ETTY & Alex's puppy dog, Max.
- I hate my hands and feet, my legs, boobs, nose, ankles, neck and hips.
- I love to draw, I love art I mean. I can draw.
- Weddings, wedding dresses.
Ah, that's enough for now, I'm getting a little bored and drowsy. Time for bed.
What is your best friend's Mom's name?
Gabz, Gabby, Gab, Gabriela
Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
I don't think I have a mole.. I have like two risen freckles.
Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
Some substitute.
Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
No, I actually haven't.
What body part do you wash first?
I shave my legs.
Do you have any peircings?
Yeah, both ears but I think they've closed up but I will soon to have my nose pierced again.
What's the strangest talent you have?
I don't know.. I don't really have one.
Do you have an innie or an outtie?
Like a belly button? An innie?
What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
I don't really like Pringles that much to be honest.
Have you ever been tied up?
Yeah but not sexually.
What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
I can't even remember.
Do you parallel park or drive around the block?
I don't do either.
Have you ever had two dates in one night?
Nah man.
How many times have you been cussed out?
Once.
Which shoe do you put on first?
Mostly my right but it usually just comes down which is closest.
How old are you?
Sixteen... Nigger.
Have you ever been to a gay bar?
Nah.
Is there one thing all of your ex's have had in common?
Yeah?
Did you french kiss before you were 16?
Yes haha
Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
I reallllllllly want to go cow tipping but there's no rush haha.
Who is the last person you think about before you fall asleep?
Sometimes it changes.
Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?
Yeah aw.
Have you ever found anything gross in your parent's bedroom?
Yeah haha
What was your childhood nickname?
Bru.
When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Ages and ages and ages ago.
Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?
Nah.
What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
I don't drive.
Have you ever bitten your toenails?
No.
How do you normally eat your cookies?
I didn't know there was more than one way. TELL ME HOW.
When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt?
I don't work out haha I'm soo laazzyyy.
Name something you do when you're alone?
Maz out.. Hard.
How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
About 3 to start feeling the alcohol take over but not tipsy.
Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?
Nope.
How often do you clean out your ears?
Often enough.
Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?
Alex keeps asking me and I took note. I'M A FOLDER ALEX, IF YOU'RE READING THIS.
About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
Not THAT often, I used to have wedgies heaps but somehow my ass sits perfectly in my underwear now..
Do you have any strange phobias?
I don't think they're strange
Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Yes, headphones and whatnot.
What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar?
Bar.. Brianna.. - Non-existent.
Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted?
Yeah I bet I have, can't think of any at the mo' though.
Have you ever called your bf/gf by another girl/guys name?
I've called him my sister's name but never have I called him another persons name in bed or anything.
Have you ever gotten caught farting while on a date?
Not but I had a huge hole in my leggings around my vag area.. And! I was sitting like my legs were on each side of the bench.
Gabz, Gabby, Gab, Gabriela
Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
I don't think I have a mole.. I have like two risen freckles.
Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
Some substitute.
Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
No, I actually haven't.
What body part do you wash first?
I shave my legs.
Do you have any peircings?
Yeah, both ears but I think they've closed up but I will soon to have my nose pierced again.
What's the strangest talent you have?
I don't know.. I don't really have one.
Do you have an innie or an outtie?
Like a belly button? An innie?
What's your favorite flavored Pringles?
I don't really like Pringles that much to be honest.
Have you ever been tied up?
Yeah but not sexually.
What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
I can't even remember.
Do you parallel park or drive around the block?
I don't do either.
Have you ever had two dates in one night?
Nah man.
How many times have you been cussed out?
Once.
Which shoe do you put on first?
Mostly my right but it usually just comes down which is closest.
How old are you?
Sixteen... Nigger.
Have you ever been to a gay bar?
Nah.
Is there one thing all of your ex's have had in common?
Yeah?
Did you french kiss before you were 16?
Yes haha
Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
I reallllllllly want to go cow tipping but there's no rush haha.
Who is the last person you think about before you fall asleep?
Sometimes it changes.
Have you ever had a poem or a song written about you?
Yeah aw.
Have you ever found anything gross in your parent's bedroom?
Yeah haha
What was your childhood nickname?
Bru.
When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Ages and ages and ages ago.
Have you ever peeked in the opposite sexes locker room?
Nah.
What's the weirdest thing you have done while driving?
I don't drive.
Have you ever bitten your toenails?
No.
How do you normally eat your cookies?
I didn't know there was more than one way. TELL ME HOW.
When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt?
I don't work out haha I'm soo laazzyyy.
Name something you do when you're alone?
Maz out.. Hard.
How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
About 3 to start feeling the alcohol take over but not tipsy.
Have you ever sniffed an animal's butt?
Nope.
How often do you clean out your ears?
Often enough.
Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?
Alex keeps asking me and I took note. I'M A FOLDER ALEX, IF YOU'RE READING THIS.
About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
Not THAT often, I used to have wedgies heaps but somehow my ass sits perfectly in my underwear now..
Do you have any strange phobias?
I don't think they're strange
Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
Yes, headphones and whatnot.
What is the stupidest thing you've ever done at a bar?
Bar.. Brianna.. - Non-existent.
Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted?
Yeah I bet I have, can't think of any at the mo' though.
Have you ever called your bf/gf by another girl/guys name?
I've called him my sister's name but never have I called him another persons name in bed or anything.
Have you ever gotten caught farting while on a date?
Not but I had a huge hole in my leggings around my vag area.. And! I was sitting like my legs were on each side of the bench.
I don't even think it was a date but close enough.. HAHA EMBARRASSING OR?
Have you ever played naked twister?
Nah, I must do that, now that you have reminded me.
Have you ever been drunk at work?
School, I've been tipsy. Granita's and Smirnoff vodka; fantastic mix, I must say.
Have you ever found your gf/bf's sibling more attractive?
Yeah haha Ben's brother, Aaron and even Jake was good looking.
Do you want to bring sexy back?
You see, I already have.
Have you ever played naked twister?
Nah, I must do that, now that you have reminded me.
Have you ever been drunk at work?
School, I've been tipsy. Granita's and Smirnoff vodka; fantastic mix, I must say.
Have you ever found your gf/bf's sibling more attractive?
Yeah haha Ben's brother, Aaron and even Jake was good looking.
Do you want to bring sexy back?
You see, I already have.
BORED
Finish this sentece: the last person you kissed is…
>Alex, my boyfriend.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
> Alex, Riley, Tian,
Do you find it hard to trust others?
>Sometimes.
Do you change your mind a lot?
>Not that often.
Can you honestly say you are okay right now?
>Sort of yeah.
Tell me what is on your mind?
>Alex.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
>Getting a job.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?
>Yeah
How is your heart?
>Better.
Is someone in love with you?
>Yes, I think so.
Next time you will kiss someone?
>Next time I see Alex.
Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
>All the time.
Honestly, are things going the way you planned?
>Not quite but they're okay.
Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
>Yes.
Is there something bothering you?
> Yeahhh.
>Alex, my boyfriend.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
> Alex, Riley, Tian,
Do you find it hard to trust others?
>Sometimes.
Do you change your mind a lot?
>Not that often.
Can you honestly say you are okay right now?
>Sort of yeah.
Tell me what is on your mind?
>Alex.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
>Getting a job.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?
>Yeah
How is your heart?
>Better.
Is someone in love with you?
>Yes, I think so.
Next time you will kiss someone?
>Next time I see Alex.
Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
>All the time.
Honestly, are things going the way you planned?
>Not quite but they're okay.
Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
>Yes.
Is there something bothering you?
> Yeahhh.
YOU'RE FUCKING BORING. I'M FUCKING BORING.
I have waited three hours for you to say, 'oh I'm at dad's having dinner, I told you that. I'll leave in an hour.' When in actual fact you did not say anything about having dinner at your fathers.
Whilst waiting in those three hours, I have never experienced such boredom in my life - ever and you're to blame.
I don't even want you to come over any more.
Are you a mean person? Not mean.
Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Stephadawggggggg.
Is there someone you don’t ever want to be out of your life? Yes.
Do you miss your past? Some parts of it.
Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? Yes.
Last thing you had to drink? abigcupofT, nigger.
Last female you talked to, who was it? Steph.. Again.
What about male? Rosario I believe.
Would you be able to date someone who couldn’t make you laugh? No.
Is anyone on your bad side? Are they everrrrrr... Actually no, no body is at the moment. What a suprise? I just initially thought someone HAD to be there before even thinking about anyone but truth is; THERE IS NO BODY.
Have you ever slapped someone across their face? Yes.. Punched Alex's face once too..
Is anything wrong? There is, just not enough for me to rant on about.
whom did you last give the finger to? Alexxxxxxxxxx on Skype in da bath.
Are you in a good mood? Fantastic mood in fact, IF STEPH EVER BRINGS THIS TEA TO ME.
Would you ever want to swim with sharks? Would be awesome.
Are you excited for anything? Yes!
What are you doing right now? I actually hate when people answer, 'this', mind you that I do sometimes write that, well used to when I actually filled out these things but obviously you're doing this. Like, what else are you doing? Tumblr? Facebook? Talking on the phone, fucking useless people honestly, the question is there for a reason!!!! But I'm on Tumblr and Facebook and rolling a few smokes.
Are you worried about anything right now? Could be... But I'm not, the outcome resolves in sleep or chronic prescribed drugs, either way I'm happy as Larry.
Have you ever been used? One night stands.. We used each other? If that counts.
Where is the last person you kissed? Sleeping at his grandaddy and grandmamma's house.
Did you have unread messages when you woke? On Tumblr... No one texts me anymore these days because I never have credit or use my phone.. How sad? Ha
I NEED ANOTHER ONE OF THESE, KILLS A SHIT LOAD OF TIME. 'TIS GEWWWWWWWD.
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