My commitments are everything to me now, kind of whack.

New favourite word: Bizarre.

AND SHE'S DANCING WITH THE HAND'S OF FATE. PLEASE STOP HER PAIN.

I am the one man army. I follow my own religion with no perspectives on life. I make my own philosophical theories. But no, I'm not crazy.

There you go Hannah. Not yet finished have to add the backdrop with water colour.
Fucking beautiful

I met him in a cell in New Orleans, I was down and out
He looked to me to be the eyes of age as he spoke right out
He talked of life, he talked of life, laughing slapped his leg stale
Mr. Bojangles, Mr. Bojangles, dance.

'An unlimited supply of weed. Imagine sitting together in the peaceful winter, rugged up both drinking a cup of tea in front of a crackling fire, just chatting together.'

Now that I've stopped dreaming i'm supposed to be filling my life up with something.

WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU NOW, BABY?

Love is when it's utterly vital to hold your breath, to savour the moment because you know, it will be gone before you know it.

Benny I love you

I cannot stand one day without you.

NOTHING EVER SEEMS REAL ANYMORE. Exiled from the world

OH THE GREAT FEELING OF ROLLING AN INCREDIBLE CIGARETTE.

Everything will be okay in the end and if it's not okay, it's not the end.

Today, I realised I can do incredible things with my mind.

Iwant to lose someone so close to me, just to see what it feels like. I want to feel real pain, a real goodbye. I want to know what life actually feels like.

Another beautiful piece produced by the one and only, Alex Pardee. You are my outstanding hero, boy.

How great it feels to know there's a little bit of faith.

WE ALWAYS FIND NEW THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH

I never expected it would turn out like this, but it did and I'm so happy it did. I love you so much, you wouldn't understand.

We only roll the best way so we have no choice but to scull the vodka, roll our cigarettes and roll down hills.
I wish I lived in Queensland.
I wish you did too, you could live in my cellar for two or three months.

Orchestral music propels me unbelievably sane. Beethoven symphony is just outstandingly beautiful.

BONFIRE AT RILEYS
EVERY WEEKEND
BOO MOTHERFUCKING YA

SUNRISE, SUNRISE

WHY AREN'T I GOING? THIS IS TERRIBLE

I stole this quote from my friend which she gave recognition to a friend from my old school.

'Sleeping with knives'

In this social chaos, there’s violence in the air. Gotta keep your wits about you, be careful not to stare.

If I were you, I'd be jealous of my friendships too...

I MISS YOU

But I have only the best conversations when my Robinhood and I are stoned - so intelligent, so open minded, s0 surreal.

I follow you into the park, thru the jungle through the dark
Girl ain't never loved one like you
Moats and boats and Waterfalls, Alleyways and payphone calls
I been everywhere with you
Laugh until we think we'll die, barefoot on a summer night
never could be sweeter than with you

I'm like the new Peter Pan, I don't ever want to grow up! I am fine how I am, I love it here. There's glitter bursting out of everyones mouths and eyes, everyone is just so alive.

Your question: 'Aww, why are birthdays shit?'
My answer: 'You know they just are, the next day you'll be filled with joy and excitement thinking it is the best day ever and before you know, it's gone - birthday over. It's something that gets you so worked up and after about 15 hours, just depends how long you're awake, aware for your birthday. After that fifteen hours, it's all over. It just shuts you down it leaves you and then you gotta wait for another 365 days to pass, just for that to happen to you again.
and the whole getting older fact, no one ever wants to grow up, do they?'

Wow, I never knew anyone of higher authority than myself - a student, in the Department of Education would show such indecency and lack of modesty towards something so minor. Suspension? You've got to be joking! For smoking a cigarette at the shops that is more than 400 metres away from the school grounds, c'mon, you're kidding right? I'm disappointed in you school, it's not very nice. Seven words directed to AP & co. - F.U.C.K. Y.O.U. so hard right now.

'Can you hear that sweet sound?' 'It's just silence babe.' 'That it is boy, isn't it sweet?' - Me

All the sound that you hear, is that just sound or is that wondrous music?
Go on, just think to yourself.

Isn't it great that you're really worth nothing? And isn't it great how safe it is when you feel sane? So go on, drown me in your hate.

I remember before school in 2009, Day Old Hate - City & Colour and Alone - Asher Roth was blaring in the morning before school with the only Stephy V. We both knew, although it was never said; to start the day off with genuine - genuine, relaxation and with zero worries. It felt good, felt utterly amazing actually. You don't understand, I miss you immensly but I see you every single day - maybe even every hour.

That hug meant so much in so little time.

You know when you're a real low life; when you're grounded and are drinking alone. Just gazed over myself, I can get pretty low like that. But it's not as bad as it sounds because I'm not afraid of sounding like a complete loser. I want to be brave, I love reading, I appreciate art like no other, I want to be successful, I am scared of failure, I am pretty much scared of life, I'm scared of gaining weight, I have regular anxiety attacks, I want to be bold, I want to satisfy mum and dad with my outcomes in life, I don't ever want to grow old. But we can't have everything we want, right?

The silence in my head compells anxiety

WHEN I WAS YOUNG, YEAH I USED TO BELIEVE IT
THAT THE STARS IN THE NIGHT SKY
WERE SUNS THAT REFUSED TO SING
AND THEN I SANK

Monique Jessie damn Pittas, you don't ever fail me! Ever if I could explain something explicable to somebody, it would be you, you would understand. And what the hell, you are amazing!

Free house.

All by myself right.
Smoking inside, oversized rugby jumper and music blaring. This isn't real grounding, thanks parents. You's do never fail with me

NEVER EVER THOUGHT IT WOULD TURN OUT LIKE THIS. I LOVE YOU

Me: We're perfect?

You: A unique perfect

Me: Well if it's a unique perfect then everything's perfect

You: Yes :)

You: You guys just get each other like no one else does.

It's like you guys have your own little world

or else I'm just insane.

'Things fade, people grow' - Me

Lights black; heads bang
You're my drug
We live it
You're drunk, you need it
Real love, I'll give it
So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts.

Natalia, today I remembered that when your daddy past away, you texted me exactly two minutes after you daddy had past away. That makes me feel so special in your world, man. I will never forget you, you can talk to me about anything. Whatever you please, I will never ever judge you and I just want you to know that I will always have your back. I trust you with my pockets man.

If I could reach up to the heavens, I'd pull down a star or two. And if I had to chose which shun most bright, those two stars would just fade out to the night and there'd be you. 'Coz I'm only human but you're an angel without wings.

As real as it gets, no editing. Yeah boy!

I need to invest in a high quality pocket because as it has been said, 'Natalia is going to be in my pocket forever'. But sadly enough, I'm not wearing any pants.

Can music save your mortal soul?

The questioning of art

8th of May - Part I
- $180, sixteen children, birthday - our eligible excuse to get fucked up, ample cigarettes, vodka, Black Douglas ect. Doritos and soft drink, our verandah, nigger beats? SHE VOMITED ON MY BRICKS? NO WAY... LIKE I OWN THAT SHIT DOWN THERE, THEY ARE MY BRICKS. I REPRESENT THEM BRICKS DOWNSTAIRS.
'ILL CLEAN IT UP' NO YOU WONT. yeah i know...

The wonderful eight, of May. It was our magnificent birthday, our as in me and stephanie's 15th. We sung that 'happy birthday' tune to one another and had shots all round. It was great, Samuel's iPod playing some TFU and nigger beats. We exclaimed, 'NIGGERFAGGOT' numerous times.

"I SHOVED VODKA UP MY MONKEY'S ASS" - Breezie Rae

'Coz it's you and me, and all other people with nothing to do, nothing to lose. And it's you and me, and all other people and I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off you.

It's Cleopatra, darling. Cleo. Patra? CLEOPATRA.

Do they know, the places where we go when we're grey and old? 'Coz I've been told, that salvation lets their wings unfold. So when im lying in bed, thoughts running through my head, and I feel that love is dead. I'm loving angels instead.

THAT'S CHINA, GREAT WALL OF CHINA AND THE FORBIDDEN CITY
PROBABLY THE MOST HAPPIEST MOMENTS OF MY LIFE, EVER.

BE ANYONE YOU WANT TO BE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE "Rooney, Stepha" V. DAWS
My big twin sister, that twelve minutes still doesn't count.
You're more than the best person ever right now, you are honestly, my bestfriend. I'm hoping for the best and wishing you luck in everything. Have the best day ever, get crunk, get drunk get fuckkkkkked up.

I praise my friends of how lovely they are, I hope they know how really nice they are. I just like to remind them every once in a while.

Benny, I possess your dignity in my pocket. You got my life, put it in your cabinet - just like you promised.

Would you lie in your backyard and stare at the stars with me? Would you lie next to me and forgive me for the trouble I've seemed to be? From head to toe, would you let the detrimental worries flow out into the dark sky? Would you give the pernicious past to the soul that lie beneath us?

Capturing essential stillness.

SAID HEY BABE, TAKE A WALK ON THE WILD SIDE.

I don't know what to do, I feel as if I'm stuck in deep mud and I can't move my feet the slightest bit. I know life won't wait for me, it will go on and it won't stop. But I'm stuck and I feel as if I just have to keep up - keep running. You said, 'keep on running until it's time to stop'.

Tian: He's Italian, isn't he?
Brianna: Nah, Maltese.
Tian: That's a lolly, Brianna.

THERE'S A MILLION LITTLE LIGHTS, WHEN THE SKY TURNS BLACK. THE PATTERNS ARE IN OUR EYES.

"If you stand up, I'll buy you all ice-cream."

Sitting here with Natalia, she's telling me her humorous story about Stefan tricking her mum. This is good, good fun. The others have made their way down to the shops to purchase some cigarettes - disgusting habit. Talking about disgusting habits, I just had ashed my cigarette in the ash tray to the left. How ironic? I'd say so. We just chilling out to some gentle music, smoking a cigarette, you know? Saturday is my birthday, the day I was born. The big one five, coming my way. Poor Natalia, still a baby only just fourteen. Weekend will be good, I'm no longer grounded. Shit yes.

WHY'D YOU SAY HALLELUJAH, IF IT MEANS NOTHING TO YOU?

I KNOW YOU KILL PEOPLE - YOU STEAL THEIR SOULS, BUT YOU ARE STILL MY HEROES. THAT IS NEVER GOING TO CHANGE. YOU INSPIRE ME.

Oh Asia, how I miss you. Don't worry though, I'll be back soon enough and I won't be leaving you.

I said to myself that I would never forgive you, even in one hundred years. Anger despised me, I thought I'd never give in. Although, I'm not blaming myself for this it was you and me - together, ripping eachothers hair out, strand by strand. It was time for each of us to let go and that we did, with ease in fact. I forgive you and I just want to tell you everything. I don't know what it is inside me, but I now feel complacent when I tell you these things. You still got this special place in my heart, and I'm don't mean to make space for you nor am I avoiding doing so. It's just how it is, and I'm sorry but that's how it is going to be - forever.

Well I met you at the blood bank, we were looking at the bags. Wondering if any of the colours, matched any of the names we knew on the tag.

Who needs that sentimental bullshit anyway? Takes more than just a memory to make me cry. And I'm happy just to sit here around a table with old friends, and see which one of us can tell the biggest lies.

There's no change, there's no pain

Leonardo Di Caprio, i have met your look-a-like, although you were French and we were in Railay, Thailand.

Watching Romeo and Juliet

I just genuinely forgave you, and I feel exceptionally great.

Ben, I am so happy I celebrated your birthday with you. I am also genuinely sorry, alright no, I'm not. I'm not going to give you birthday sex as Rosario says. Hahaha, but I'm still trying to understand why you make me so darn happy. You boy, my bestfriend I love you.