CHUCK RAGAN
Amatore, I read your blog saying you're doubting your character when it comes to conversing. I'm telling you now, do not ever doubt yourself, young soul. You're perfectly beautiful in every way possible.





And, Michael, you would fall and turn the white snow red as strawberries, in the summertime.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DrQRS40OKNE&NR=1


Happy music, happy music. Happy, music...
"Bitches are like stitches, if you pull them out... they open up."
Okay, I have this best friend; she claims she's mentally depressed, odds are; she probably is. You know, not the 'scarred by disturbing things or actions' sort of depressed, her mental intake is collapsing. It's despairing seeing somebody you absolutely adore and admire feel dismal about such important and priceless aspects of their life. The somber energy delivered by her presence and communication is absolutely disrupting me, I only care for her everything. I ask you one thing, my dear; grasp happiness and console the inner feeling of it, please.
It felt like I was with the wind when you told me, pieces of paper that had been torn up by a frustrated soul and thrown into the air. No thoughts going no where, no emotion delivering anywhere. Dead meat. Exactly how it was, exactly how I was when you told me.
I'm starting to realise what 'perfect' actually is or means. Yes it does exist, there is such thing. Stop being so ignorant and trying to bound things you don't want to hear or don't want to know. Reality is harsh, get the fuck over it
Gorillaz's new album, 'Plastic Beach'. Wondrous, get amongst it.
Now to get ready for school...

I must say, I bought the coolest beanie of the bunch.
I'm already wishing holidays were here
You used to be much more..."muchier." You've lost your muchness.
"Am I mad?"
"I'm afraid so, you're entirely bonkers. But I'll tell you a secret; all the best people are."
I'd like to add, if you're reading this Monique Jessie Pittas;

TURN THE FUCKING HEATER ON
Brilliant night I'd say. Fishbowls and sombrero's with the girlies at Taco Bill. Us being poor bitches and treasure our money, fucked off the main meal and went to maccas. Grabbed a dinner box, gave most of it to my good friend, Jake McKay and his friends.
We then made our way to Essendon station where Steph saved some man's life, there and then and we danced in a native way around a sombrero singing mexican tunes doing the jewish stance.
Now I'm at Monique's, just thinking about shit. A good night, a good night..
Secretly, between me and my thoughts. I'd like people's particular predictions to come true, just secretly..
First time going bar then clubbing, with one of the girls that is closest to my heart. I never see her, but I guarantee she will be experiencing the biggest hug ever in two weeks time.
I was on the phone to you for a few hours or so, and I could not stop smiling.
Biggest cover up for being a slut; say you're a dyke
Jazz, orchestral music on a Friday morning with a coffee and a cigarette. Brilliant.
Today, I woke up smiling and I don't know why
News today, I found a friend, in my head.
Rise from the ashes like a phoenix sun
I was so happy to see you laugh today, even if I just saw a glance at your face and your shoulder jiggling, it made my day.
I need a miracle, we need a miracle. Save us, save her.
I'm sick of seeing posts by you bragging every single five fucking minutes. Shut up, I swear.





Turn your face away from your god. Nothing can save you from this. Suck it up bitch, I’m going to fucking own you. You’re fucked. Say your prayers, fall to your knees.

These children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women and cheap drinks. It feels right. All these asphyxiated, self medicated, take the white pill you’ll feel alright.



UPS AND DOWNS, SMILES AND FROWNS
D, O DOUBLE G. SNOOP DOGG.
I fucking love when me and Carl listen to Dean Martin, smoke and eat pasta together. We talk about all the things that are troubling us and all the things that are delivering happiness. I fucking love you Carl Watson, you are beautiful, boy.
I keep generalising 'everybody'. I really mean the people that I know, I care and I love. Just 'for your information'.
Time to get the fuck ready for school, again. Wednesday, 0700 hours.
Are we really all that fabulous than we think?

I enjoyed the company of my cousin, Vernice when she came down from Ocean Grove. It was grand, we smoked in our new car because, 'I wanted to show it to her'. Rather grand, rather grand..
Everyone around her is in pain, this isn't what I wanted.
Everybody is growing taller than me, it's glorious!
Social 2010 - Monique and Leah, midgets please grow a little so I don't have to look like a lanky giraffe.
Why is it when you shake, glitter and $1 coins fall out everywhere?
Colour me once, colour me twice.
Thought there was a storm coming our way, I was excited. Then I realised it was just a plane.
"I'm actually proud of Benjamin Notar's and Brianna Daws' relationship, I love how they can just go back to eachother as if the walls around them are crashing down."
I dont understand how I feel about that but I feel something so unbelievably warm inside and I don't know why exactly just yet.
Fucking yeah Benny, it's working out even when I said it wouldn't.
Fell in love with The Kooks again..
That. Is something beautiful.
Face goosebumps - continuously affecting me for approximately three hours now.
I can hear birds chirping, time to jump off this fucking couch, make a coffee, smoke a cigarette and have a little think to myself outside. This has been a long fucking night, I'm just waiting until it gets to about 9:30am, then it will drain.
MR. BOJANGLES, DANCE.
I swear someone has been up for hours, just above me, doing nothing. Slightly silent.
MY HAIR'S GROWING. Shit fucking yes!
I fucking love the song Strobe - Deadmau5. It is so relaxing.
Everyday I consider deleting my Facebook.
I can fucking feel face goosebumps all up on the side of my face all the way on the my scalp, its fucking pissing me off.
Day 01 – Introduce yourself
Brianna Rae Daws - Bree, Breezie if you may.
15 years old, born on the 8th of May. Green eyes, blonde hair, fare skin. Twin of Stephanie and younger sister of Chloe, 18 yrs and daughter Steve and Victoria. Strathmore's my hood, 3041 represent, you know what I'm saying cunt? Basketball. Enough said?
Day 02 – Your first love
I think Ben..
Day 03 – Your parents
Stevie and Victoria.
Day 04 – What you ate today
Had Maccas twice.
Day 05 – Your definition of love
When time stops moving, when you need to hold your breath to think about the someone you apparently love.
Day 06 – Your day
LONG AND LOVELY.
Day 07 – Your best friend
Natalia and Monique.
Day 08 – A moment
Beautiful.
Day 09 – Your beliefs
No beliefs, take it how it is.
Day 10 – What you wore today
Leggings, knitted jumper and Ramones tee.
Day 11 – Your siblings
Stephanie and Chloe.
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Wallet, Cigarettes, Dragon, lighter, tissues, filters.
Day 13 – This week
Last week of holidays.
Day 14 – What you wore today
Already said it.
Day 15 – Your dreams
I dont ever remember my dreams. Although, when I was trying to sleep. I was running up this metal thing that was like metal slipperly slats and I had to grab the rails to keep up because it kept going steeper and steeper and there was millions of trees surrounding it and then I looked down and I happen to be vertical in the air. Then, all of a sudden, it transformed into a big, red plastic slide. The biggest in the world.
Then I was in reality because Steph was screaming.
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Liam fucking Hargreaves haha.
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Way too many.
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
This years was pretty good.
Day 19 – Something you regret
Stuff? I don't know.
Day 20 – This month
July.
Day 21 – Another moment
Has past.
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
People.
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
People.
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
People.
Day 25 – A first
time on a plane.
Day 26 – Your fears
Missing things. Not being able to move my legs. Heights. The sea bed.
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Phranang Cave Beach/Railay. Holy fuck I miss it.
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Friends from my old school.
Day 29 – Your aspirations
I want to be a writer or an artist. If not, a journalist.
Day 30 – One last moment
Never is a last moment?
Just got home at 5:46am from going out with Claudia and Patrick. Boo motherfucking ya.
I AM LISTENING TO FUCKING MOZART.
Deep fried spring rolls and hot chips for breakfast, oh boy.
I have never been up this early! Besides the fact that I haven't slept, this is astonishing. I am proud of Monique, Steph and I. Well done ladies.
We are officially, most definitely, nocturnal.
I like to talk to myself across the valley, listening to my own personal echo and stuff. It's pretty fun.
Our cocktails turned out brilliant!
So, it's approximately quarter past four in the morning. We were drinking coffee out the back, showing each other a good time, appreciating the beauty in music and all that jazz. Out of no where Steph just pops this great idea in all of our enthused minds and says, 'we have a free house and we're drinking coffee... Dude'. We all suddenly pulled this ecstatic grin with evil in our eyes. We have now decided to make cocktails. Is this not the best 4:15am in the morning idea ever? OVER AND OUT.
"Did you write I love you?" "..No?" "You just said 'I love you' and I just wrote 'I love you', I love your shit!"
THUG AT HEART, ME LISTENING TO QUANTIC AND ALL.
This is the best dead old man I have ever come across. Your music makes my day every single day
See their mustaches? That is exactly why I love them, pretty explanitory.
So say goodbye to love and hold your head up high, there's no rush, we're all just waiting to die.
So as the days go on, already leaving the Mancini household and ending up at the De Franceschi, or Pittas if you may, humble aboad once again. Lounging around like sloths, appreciating the beauty of music with not a word to be heard. By golly, this is fantastic. Brianna... over and out.
Monique Pittas' shift button is reasonably small.
John Mayer is a freaking bad ass.
I have just discovered some amazing, Australian singer on Youtube, he has my heart. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL BOY
Hey Ben, I fucking love you with alllllllllll my heart! Don't ever forget that
Who would have known it was you to disappoint me? You arrogant prick, I cannot believe you. You're the one that broke my heart.
And has just mended it back together.




OUR LATE NIGHT PICNIC AT 3AM, BEAUTIFUL
I'm absolutely fine to know that my parent's don't care if we go for a 'bike ride' in the middle of the night and advise to take our dog with us.
Florence and The Machine!
IT'S THE VENGABUS! YEAH!
"Wake up, woop still stoned back to bed." "You remind me of that song Warp 1.9?" "Why?" "Wake up... Woop woop (stoned)... Back to bed!"
I just like to remind my friends how nice they actually are.
Hey! I love you Benny!
You told me. I stopped. I pulled a faint smile and felt warmth and comfort. Thank you so much, Monique. I've said it before, you don't ever fail me.
Joel Amatore, you are such a beautiful soul. I swear, you will get far. Keep this in mind.
Slowly, beautiful, absolutely fucking satisfied.
"Everyone, and everything is not very good at the moment.
And it's ruining all of us."
A friend of mine had written that on his blog, I'm posting it here because it is so unbelievably true.
We all need to take a step back and take a glimpse of ourselves, we never used to be like this.
Everything is gradually patching together.
YOU ARE ALL I NEED RIGHT NOW
I AM SO HAPPY.
Picnic with Anthony and Stephanie at 3am in the morning under the moonlight. High as kites, gravity pulling us to the left. Plenty of food and listening to Riceboy Sleeps - talking shit 'til sunrise. By golly, how special was that night? Absolutely marvelous.
My whole family is chaining together strongly. Those who are worth it anyway, and I cannot believe how lovely it feels.
AUNTY JULIE, YOU ARE THE FREAKING BEST!

I
FUCKING
HATE
PEOPLE
Wow, that was emo of myself.
When someone tells me to get over myself, I do listen. It's annoying how somebody thinks they're all 100% good and they don't need to fix or change anything about themself yet they're expecting me to change my whole self around. Get over it, I can do what I want.
Okay everyone has just left the table. Didn't expect that and if you read this, yes I do fucking care but I can do or see whoever I like and no I do not act differently around Ben and 'shit'.
Have came to conclusion that my seriousness and my grievousness is in all perfect ratio. I praise my efforts.
Hey soul sister!
Explain what triggered your last kiss?
A goodbye.
Have you ever looked someone straight in the eyes and told them a lie?
No, I am not that much of a sad excuse.

Who was your crush in 5th grade?
Liam or Matt
About how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Hardly any. About 5?
Is your hair naturally straight?

Nope, wavy.
Do you wish anyone in particular was still in your life?
Yes, I do.
Are relationships ever really worth it?
Somedays for some people.
Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Big Mamma.
Who was the last person to text you?
Monique.
What's the weather like outside?
Pretty darn cold.
Where was the last place you bought something?
Gaffney Street milk bar, cigarettes.
Is there anyone you couldn't go a day without talking to?
Yes.
Did you sing at all today?
Absolutely rocked out to Faith - George Michael before.
What is your current desktop picture?
Our friends.

Is there anyone you're holding onto, even though you know you shouldn't?
No siree.
Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Yeah!
Last time you swam in a pool?
Last weekend in Sydney.
Is there someone, that if they walked out of your life, you'd just give up?
No.
Have you ever made out with someone that had a tattoo?
Yeah.
Is the person you last texted single?
Yep.
Who did you last hang out with?
Monique, Steph and Natalia but just before that;
Riley, Joel, Patrick, Benny, Zac and Rosie.
When will your next kiss take place?
Riley's couch.
When you're getting ready for something, do you listen to music?
Oh absolutely.
Kissed anyone with the name starting with a C, A, T, J or Z?
Yes.
Tell me something about the last person you kissed?
Absolutely love him.
When you're single is it alright to kiss random boys/girls?
Definately. Not really good if you're seeing somebody though.

What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night
Swimming!
Do you think age matters in relationships?
Not really.
Is there someone you can’t stop thinking about?
Yes.
Do your parents have a MySpace account?
No haha.
Who did you last ride in the car with under the age of 20?
Adrian, Georgia, Monique, Natalia and Steph.
Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?
Yeah.
Did you sleep alone last night?
I did, it was lovely. I missed my big bad bed.
Would you rather have your nose or tongue pierced?
I already have my tongue pierced, I am soon to get my nose pierced too!
"Oh you're pretty gay..."
- *PA* "MENTHOL CIGARETTE!"


Fink - Sort Of Revolution (Cinematic Orchestra radio edit)
Oh Cinematic Orchestra, your music is like delicate drops falling onto a tin roof. You make me feel oh so, commodiously adequate.

Dearest Stephanie.
My parents and beloved aunty Julie are all sitting on the floor in the hallway laughing and bitching about Julie and Stevie's mother hahaha
I am hating on you.
Right this very moment.
Haven't been this angry for a while now.
I hope you live an unhappy life and
is disappointed in me because to be honest,
I really do not give two or three fucks.
And you being unhappy right now, is probably
the best thing I could see at the moment.
Right now; this is when I need you most and you're away, with no credit. I'm so lost.
Wowee Stephy, I find great, great anger in you. I don't know how sister love works but it takes me ten minutes or less to forgive you. Isn't this extraordinary?


Travie McCoy, you are beautiful

When I have my music volume up high, I can guarantee to hear somebody at the other end of the house singing along to it.
"Do you beep everyone you see or something?" "Well I just like to because it gives them a boost of enthusiasm."
Maccas run with Casey and Steph
Thank you so kindly Natalia, Carl and Anthony for cleaning my house and leaving a cigarette under my pillow along with a comforting note but Anthony, I'm sick of your 'Horizon Blue' antics.
Up's and down's, smiles and frowns. Right?
Hey, you are my awesome.
I unequivocally depreciate my act towards 'The Hankie Project', 'Objects Of The Dead' art exhibition held in Sydney.







You know what's great about my kettle?
It's called Russel Hobbs 'Whisper' and that means I can make coffee in the middle of the night without waking my parents up, you know why? Because it 'whispers'.
Do you understand now why the world needs to meet and greet my beloved kettle?




Keeley Shaye O'Hara:
www.diariesfortheyouth.blogspot.com.
How rude are you? Invading my life like that, you're atrocious.
PIANOBYTES
Lately, I'd rather my mum over my dad? This is strange.
Oh, I can feel an anxiety attack building up. Prepare ladies and gentlemen.
Dad just caught me smoking on the balcony hahahaha
Whoever wrote SpongeBob SquarePants was most likely stoned
Thoughts slip away, memories don't
'I'm laughing at Spongebob, I feel like a retard', oh Chloe.
I PRAY TODAY FOR A SPONGEBOB MARATHON
One day, we're going to head down to Rye beach or somewhere with beautiful crystal waters. Grab a pineapple each. and some snorkel gear.
Go to a rather 'deep' part of the shore but enough to see the sea bed clearly.
And darling love, we're going to have a picnic under the water, holding pineapples and somebody is going to take an underwater photo.
It will be most beautiful and happy, no doubts and I cannot wait.
Probably the greatest idea I've had for a while now.
DREAMS OLD MEN DREAM
Okay, so I haven't washed, brushed or treated my hair for about four to five days now. I've kept my skin glowing and clear. I feel like a bum and I always feel like I have just woken up but it has to be the best thing ever.
Whitley and Chuck Ragan, you have my heart!
I think I'm black so I reckon I can rap. You think you're so ghetto but baby, YOU'RE JUST FROM PASCOE VALE.

Fucking slut.
Tomorrow will somehow find its way to us again. With all the sunlight in your eyes, seems forgotten. When you feel like we're drowning, sinking to the bottom. The only thing to do now, is just start running.
Oh no, Natalia.
At the end of the day, we're just going to throw it all away. It's all just the same.
Natalia: Who do you think I am, God?
Brianna: No, you're Natalia.
But that's close enough.
I WANT TO MAKE A GOON TREE.
Home on the weekend, fucken yeah.
I HAD THE BEST COFFEE IN THE WORLD TODAY

I don't believe in an intervensionist god

I NEED
YOU
TO SUPPORT
ME