Skip school for this? Are you serious? Absolutely.

YOU MAKE ME DANCE, INSIDE AND OUT.

Everybody can improve their unfortunate flaws. I guess this is just one, make me proud, Chloe.

This is the moment I have been fretting for my whole life.

My attendence record in life is appauling.

Now I've stopped dreaming, I'm supposed to be filling my life with something

ME AND ANTHONY HAVE DISCOVERED MAGIC MUSHROOMS IS JUST A BIG DREAM

"OH NO I'M SPONGEING AGAIN"

THIS MORNING, I CAN'T FIND MY FUCKING WINTER SKIRT, AGAIN.

Does someone text you goodnight every night? Back when I had to phone, yeahhhh.
Did you hangout with your best friend this weekend? The weekend is in about 4 hours.

Do you hate being home alone? I absolutely love it
Are you tanned? Sadly, no.
What do you think of tea? Early cold mornings, a green tea or a coffee with a cigarette. Beautiful Are you picky about who you give your number to? Sort of.
Who has called you the most today? No one, it's only morning
Who was the last person to message you on myspace and what about? Don't knowww
What was the reason you got in trouble last? Being late for school
Is there anyone, on your mind right now that shouldn't be? No Would you break the law to save a loved one? Absolutely
Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? Yes oh my fucking god. Same shit, different day.
Do you regret doing anything you've done this week? No.
Will you be in a relationship in the next couple of months? Who knows?
What were you doing at 10:00AM this morning? That's 17 minutes ago, exactly the same thing I'm doing now. I'm in Multimedia at school.
How many tattoos would you like to have? 4 or 5
Who was the last person to hold your hand? Most likely Natty Babes
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? Shit. Yes.
Do you like orange juice? Fucken yeah!
What are you listening to at the moment? These idiot kids in my grade being a nuisance.
Tell me about the shirt your wearing? Tights, socks, skivvy, my winter skirt high waisted, a scarf and my jacket.
What woke you up this morning? ORCHESTRAL MUSIC. I HAVE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER TO GET OUT OF BED.
How's your heart lately? Can't be bothered asking it.
Are you planning to go see a movie anytime soon? I want to see Nightmare On Elm Street and The A-Team
Whats your current problem? I'm tired, hungry and I wanna go see Chlo :(
Do you think the person(s) you like/ love, loves/ likes you back?
Yes. Are you a shy person? Not really
Did you have a good day today? Started off fantastic, it's slowly getting to the dumps again.
What did you do? Woke up early on a cold morning. Made a coffee, sat out the back on the stairs, played jazz music not too loud but loud enough to hear it. Now I'm in multimedia and Micaela isn't even here, the dumb bitch. How did you get your last bruise? I was probably drunk.
Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone? Yeah.When was the last time you changed in front of someone? Yesterday
Are you wearing anything that belongs to someone else? No siree
When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Early this morning
Who's the last person that texted you? Tian?
When was the last time you gave someone the finger? Not too sure hey.
Could you go the rest of your life without doing any drugs? Probably not but antibiotics are important.
Who slept in a bed with you last night? No one, just me. Last person you text messaged? Tian
Have you ever regretted anything? Yeah
Do you miss the way things used to be? Not at all
Have you met someone in the last year who turned out to be amazing?
Absolutely.
Is any part of you sad at all? Shit fucking yes.
Do you break things when you are mad? Most of the time, I like to throw things around.
If you were upset, who is the first boy you'd go to? I don't know Last person you got mad at? Benny

NATALIA AND MONIQUE YOU ARE MY BESTFRIENDS

"Spend as much time as you can with Chlo, because we don't know if she will be around much longer"
Dad, you're a great man but you just broke my heart, you broke my faith.

GET BETTER CHLOE, YOU ARE AMAZING

Coffee, smokes, telephone, ashtray, lighter, blanket, veranda, view, music. I know the ultimate chilling, what can I say?

"Whenever I have time to think to myself, I get all down in the dumps and stuff." - Me

You: Yep, the good life.
Me: If you want, it's just life.

SITTING HERE, LONESOME.

I'm sitting here right, well everybody just 'sits there' when they're writing a blog post but I'm just sitting here. Just, sitting here, listening to Triple J, I know it seems rather typical. But the thoughts sprinting through my mind, are unique - they're arresting me. I'll let you fellow earthlings in on a little secret; these thoughts aren't my usual, typical sort of 'contemplating' thoughts. They're reasonably scary. Wait, stop, who am I kidding? They are unbelievably scary I must say. They are not decisive objectives, just plain ol' mortifying, insightive delibrations. I'm home, when my parents aren't here. I'm home when I am with music, I'm home when I'm just on a chair with a coffee and some cigarettes. I'm home when I actually think.
I never think, I'm living on predictions. Boy, is this not thee best thing I have ever created?
I absolutely just came to the true conclusion of the quote, 'no one ever knows what others are going through'. No one does know, no one ever would understand.
Today, right now; we should just all give up.

NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW THIS, BUT YOU CAN PUT YOUR WEED IN THERE

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE JAZZ MUSIC

Sitting at a table, listening to jazz music, drinking coffee and smoking with the beauty's of me. Utterly amazing, ladies and gentlemen.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white,

The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night.

And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky.

Are also on the faces, of people going by.

I see friends shaking hands saying, 'how do you do?'

They're really saying I love you.

Just a few people that I think are outstanding.

I'm home alone and I just realised I can talk to myself. I'm sick of just thinking to myself.

I'm not alcoholic. I just drink juice out of a wine glass and have a cigarette. Umpteen class ladies and gentlemen, umpteen class.

Well, guys, I am sitting here butt-naked. Not contemplating on the little things on life, that would just be absolutely typical for someone of fifteen years of age who loves their friends. I am just sitting here, legs spread, laying half down, slouching back, just kickin' it. Yeah sounds terribly disgusting. It's just freedom.
Freedom to lay here, butt naked and just feel awfully grand about life.

How beautiful?

I hate when people copy my genuine, my awesome thank you's and congratulations.
I'm proud of myself that I had the courage to wear my beautiful, velvet leggings.
I don't care if people change, it's most likely for the better because I see you almost everyday and I still love you. It doesn't matter if they change for the good or bad, just if you still love them.

Viva la vida ladies and gentlemen, because it doesn't get better than this.
Teenagers and adolescents of twenty ten, we are the future and I know we will be better than anyone else.
We don't compete with eachother to get something, we just work together. We are the ones that make this world.
Don't forget that.

Thinking of getting my nose pierced.
Last night was unbelivably wild. I almost got suspended for creating a tower of chairs, it was pure artistic skills and expression I tell you. Photo's up soon.

GOTTA TELL MY FRIENDS ABOUT MY BUTTON TROUBLES...

I've got three thought trains in my head. Three different railway lines, three different futures. All with different stations.

Train one - The thought of thinking of your future before you act, asking yourself if it will affect open pathways. To speak in the name of 'your' Lord, to keep faith in everything.
To be pleasant.


Train two - The thought of; will this affect my future aim. Will this toke fuck me up for the rest of my life? 'No, who gives two fucking shits, let's just get fucked up'. To draw and write my life away, run away where nothing matters anymore. If I take this, nothing now matters anymore.


Train three - Drop out of school and scrape plates. Does not sound too ideal for myself particularly. Perhaps do an apprenticeship. Give up on everything surrounding you - nothing matters anymore and nothing ever will. Just to get fucked up.

I want to inject vodka into a watermelon, greatest idea ever? I think so!

Got two favourite boys in the world. Benny Notar and Tian, it's so strange. I would do anything in the world for them. Possibly Samuel is up there also but I'm not writing any dedication towards them, no siree. They are climbing incredibly quickly to be the best boys in the world, to explain what they mean to me is probably most impossible. I want them here, and never to leave - ever.

I love those little sunlight rays in rivers where there are warm spots and you try so fucking hard to stay in them and when you have to move on, you pray to god you find another because you cannot stand the freezing water.
Just a piece of life for you, I love painful happiness.

OUR YOUTH IS EXILED FROM THE WORLD

Breathing, drawing, and rolling weed is all I know how to do.

OMGITM;BLOODYBEETROOTS
Oh my god, it's techno music.

"I try to get in her dreams sometimes, it's so funny - it's classic." - Breezie Rae Daws

Last night; year nine social and Neil 'Jox' Undy's afterwards. Fantastic night although, the waltz pissed me off. Wild as night and let's just conclude it as: my stomach hurts like a bitch, I'm so hungover and I have to go to school. Enough said?

Photo's soon, when someone can be fucked putting them on Facebook.

First time in my life I feel like a hot jam doughnut from the MCG

Riley Taylor Futo, RTF. Sounds like some sort of insurance company, doesn't it? Well, Big Rizer it was your birthday last weekend and guess who didn't enter an incredible post stating it was your birthday, saying how much you meant to me and telling you that I have faith for your birthday wishes to come true. Yep, that's right - you're devastatingly correct, that was me. Here it is 'Big Man Rizer', happy fucking birthday. You and I possess this great, unconditional bond you know, drugs and stuff? It's no secret, you are brilliant Riley. Don't ever fade Riz.

My whole recent Facebook profile wall is full of posts saying how much people miss me. Is this right? What am I doing wrong?

I hate being sick, Dad never believes me. It's not my fault, I wanted to go to school today. I found this incredible new band just then - Karen O And The Kids. Beautiful music, my new Balamorhea, my new Sigur Ros.

My commitments are everything to me now, kind of whack.

New favourite word: Bizarre.

AND SHE'S DANCING WITH THE HAND'S OF FATE. PLEASE STOP HER PAIN.

I am the one man army. I follow my own religion with no perspectives on life. I make my own philosophical theories. But no, I'm not crazy.

There you go Hannah. Not yet finished have to add the backdrop with water colour.
Fucking beautiful

I met him in a cell in New Orleans, I was down and out
He looked to me to be the eyes of age as he spoke right out
He talked of life, he talked of life, laughing slapped his leg stale
Mr. Bojangles, Mr. Bojangles, dance.

'An unlimited supply of weed. Imagine sitting together in the peaceful winter, rugged up both drinking a cup of tea in front of a crackling fire, just chatting together.'

Now that I've stopped dreaming i'm supposed to be filling my life up with something.

WHO'S GONNA LOVE YOU NOW, BABY?

Love is when it's utterly vital to hold your breath, to savour the moment because you know, it will be gone before you know it.

Benny I love you

I cannot stand one day without you.

NOTHING EVER SEEMS REAL ANYMORE. Exiled from the world

OH THE GREAT FEELING OF ROLLING AN INCREDIBLE CIGARETTE.

Everything will be okay in the end and if it's not okay, it's not the end.

Today, I realised I can do incredible things with my mind.

Iwant to lose someone so close to me, just to see what it feels like. I want to feel real pain, a real goodbye. I want to know what life actually feels like.

Another beautiful piece produced by the one and only, Alex Pardee. You are my outstanding hero, boy.

How great it feels to know there's a little bit of faith.

WE ALWAYS FIND NEW THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH

I never expected it would turn out like this, but it did and I'm so happy it did. I love you so much, you wouldn't understand.

We only roll the best way so we have no choice but to scull the vodka, roll our cigarettes and roll down hills.
I wish I lived in Queensland.
I wish you did too, you could live in my cellar for two or three months.

Orchestral music propels me unbelievably sane. Beethoven symphony is just outstandingly beautiful.

BONFIRE AT RILEYS
EVERY WEEKEND
BOO MOTHERFUCKING YA

SUNRISE, SUNRISE

WHY AREN'T I GOING? THIS IS TERRIBLE

I stole this quote from my friend which she gave recognition to a friend from my old school.

'Sleeping with knives'

In this social chaos, there’s violence in the air. Gotta keep your wits about you, be careful not to stare.

If I were you, I'd be jealous of my friendships too...

I MISS YOU

But I have only the best conversations when my Robinhood and I are stoned - so intelligent, so open minded, s0 surreal.

I follow you into the park, thru the jungle through the dark
Girl ain't never loved one like you
Moats and boats and Waterfalls, Alleyways and payphone calls
I been everywhere with you
Laugh until we think we'll die, barefoot on a summer night
never could be sweeter than with you

I'm like the new Peter Pan, I don't ever want to grow up! I am fine how I am, I love it here. There's glitter bursting out of everyones mouths and eyes, everyone is just so alive.

Your question: 'Aww, why are birthdays shit?'
My answer: 'You know they just are, the next day you'll be filled with joy and excitement thinking it is the best day ever and before you know, it's gone - birthday over. It's something that gets you so worked up and after about 15 hours, just depends how long you're awake, aware for your birthday. After that fifteen hours, it's all over. It just shuts you down it leaves you and then you gotta wait for another 365 days to pass, just for that to happen to you again.
and the whole getting older fact, no one ever wants to grow up, do they?'

Wow, I never knew anyone of higher authority than myself - a student, in the Department of Education would show such indecency and lack of modesty towards something so minor. Suspension? You've got to be joking! For smoking a cigarette at the shops that is more than 400 metres away from the school grounds, c'mon, you're kidding right? I'm disappointed in you school, it's not very nice. Seven words directed to AP & co. - F.U.C.K. Y.O.U. so hard right now.

'Can you hear that sweet sound?' 'It's just silence babe.' 'That it is boy, isn't it sweet?' - Me

All the sound that you hear, is that just sound or is that wondrous music?
Go on, just think to yourself.

Isn't it great that you're really worth nothing? And isn't it great how safe it is when you feel sane? So go on, drown me in your hate.

I remember before school in 2009, Day Old Hate - City & Colour and Alone - Asher Roth was blaring in the morning before school with the only Stephy V. We both knew, although it was never said; to start the day off with genuine - genuine, relaxation and with zero worries. It felt good, felt utterly amazing actually. You don't understand, I miss you immensly but I see you every single day - maybe even every hour.

That hug meant so much in so little time.

You know when you're a real low life; when you're grounded and are drinking alone. Just gazed over myself, I can get pretty low like that. But it's not as bad as it sounds because I'm not afraid of sounding like a complete loser. I want to be brave, I love reading, I appreciate art like no other, I want to be successful, I am scared of failure, I am pretty much scared of life, I'm scared of gaining weight, I have regular anxiety attacks, I want to be bold, I want to satisfy mum and dad with my outcomes in life, I don't ever want to grow old. But we can't have everything we want, right?

The silence in my head compells anxiety

WHEN I WAS YOUNG, YEAH I USED TO BELIEVE IT
THAT THE STARS IN THE NIGHT SKY
WERE SUNS THAT REFUSED TO SING
AND THEN I SANK

Monique Jessie damn Pittas, you don't ever fail me! Ever if I could explain something explicable to somebody, it would be you, you would understand. And what the hell, you are amazing!

Free house.

All by myself right.
Smoking inside, oversized rugby jumper and music blaring. This isn't real grounding, thanks parents. You's do never fail with me

NEVER EVER THOUGHT IT WOULD TURN OUT LIKE THIS. I LOVE YOU

Me: We're perfect?

You: A unique perfect

Me: Well if it's a unique perfect then everything's perfect

You: Yes :)

You: You guys just get each other like no one else does.

It's like you guys have your own little world

or else I'm just insane.

'Things fade, people grow' - Me

Lights black; heads bang
You're my drug
We live it
You're drunk, you need it
Real love, I'll give it
So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts.

Natalia, today I remembered that when your daddy past away, you texted me exactly two minutes after you daddy had past away. That makes me feel so special in your world, man. I will never forget you, you can talk to me about anything. Whatever you please, I will never ever judge you and I just want you to know that I will always have your back. I trust you with my pockets man.

If I could reach up to the heavens, I'd pull down a star or two. And if I had to chose which shun most bright, those two stars would just fade out to the night and there'd be you. 'Coz I'm only human but you're an angel without wings.

As real as it gets, no editing. Yeah boy!

I need to invest in a high quality pocket because as it has been said, 'Natalia is going to be in my pocket forever'. But sadly enough, I'm not wearing any pants.

Can music save your mortal soul?

The questioning of art

8th of May - Part I
- $180, sixteen children, birthday - our eligible excuse to get fucked up, ample cigarettes, vodka, Black Douglas ect. Doritos and soft drink, our verandah, nigger beats? SHE VOMITED ON MY BRICKS? NO WAY... LIKE I OWN THAT SHIT DOWN THERE, THEY ARE MY BRICKS. I REPRESENT THEM BRICKS DOWNSTAIRS.
'ILL CLEAN IT UP' NO YOU WONT. yeah i know...

The wonderful eight, of May. It was our magnificent birthday, our as in me and stephanie's 15th. We sung that 'happy birthday' tune to one another and had shots all round. It was great, Samuel's iPod playing some TFU and nigger beats. We exclaimed, 'NIGGERFAGGOT' numerous times.

"I SHOVED VODKA UP MY MONKEY'S ASS" - Breezie Rae

'Coz it's you and me, and all other people with nothing to do, nothing to lose. And it's you and me, and all other people and I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off you.

It's Cleopatra, darling. Cleo. Patra? CLEOPATRA.

Do they know, the places where we go when we're grey and old? 'Coz I've been told, that salvation lets their wings unfold. So when im lying in bed, thoughts running through my head, and I feel that love is dead. I'm loving angels instead.

THAT'S CHINA, GREAT WALL OF CHINA AND THE FORBIDDEN CITY
PROBABLY THE MOST HAPPIEST MOMENTS OF MY LIFE, EVER.

BE ANYONE YOU WANT TO BE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE "Rooney, Stepha" V. DAWS
My big twin sister, that twelve minutes still doesn't count.
You're more than the best person ever right now, you are honestly, my bestfriend. I'm hoping for the best and wishing you luck in everything. Have the best day ever, get crunk, get drunk get fuckkkkkked up.

I praise my friends of how lovely they are, I hope they know how really nice they are. I just like to remind them every once in a while.

Benny, I possess your dignity in my pocket. You got my life, put it in your cabinet - just like you promised.

Would you lie in your backyard and stare at the stars with me? Would you lie next to me and forgive me for the trouble I've seemed to be? From head to toe, would you let the detrimental worries flow out into the dark sky? Would you give the pernicious past to the soul that lie beneath us?

Capturing essential stillness.

SAID HEY BABE, TAKE A WALK ON THE WILD SIDE.

I don't know what to do, I feel as if I'm stuck in deep mud and I can't move my feet the slightest bit. I know life won't wait for me, it will go on and it won't stop. But I'm stuck and I feel as if I just have to keep up - keep running. You said, 'keep on running until it's time to stop'.

Tian: He's Italian, isn't he?
Brianna: Nah, Maltese.
Tian: That's a lolly, Brianna.

THERE'S A MILLION LITTLE LIGHTS, WHEN THE SKY TURNS BLACK. THE PATTERNS ARE IN OUR EYES.

"If you stand up, I'll buy you all ice-cream."

Sitting here with Natalia, she's telling me her humorous story about Stefan tricking her mum. This is good, good fun. The others have made their way down to the shops to purchase some cigarettes - disgusting habit. Talking about disgusting habits, I just had ashed my cigarette in the ash tray to the left. How ironic? I'd say so. We just chilling out to some gentle music, smoking a cigarette, you know? Saturday is my birthday, the day I was born. The big one five, coming my way. Poor Natalia, still a baby only just fourteen. Weekend will be good, I'm no longer grounded. Shit yes.

WHY'D YOU SAY HALLELUJAH, IF IT MEANS NOTHING TO YOU?

I KNOW YOU KILL PEOPLE - YOU STEAL THEIR SOULS, BUT YOU ARE STILL MY HEROES. THAT IS NEVER GOING TO CHANGE. YOU INSPIRE ME.

Oh Asia, how I miss you. Don't worry though, I'll be back soon enough and I won't be leaving you.

I said to myself that I would never forgive you, even in one hundred years. Anger despised me, I thought I'd never give in. Although, I'm not blaming myself for this it was you and me - together, ripping eachothers hair out, strand by strand. It was time for each of us to let go and that we did, with ease in fact. I forgive you and I just want to tell you everything. I don't know what it is inside me, but I now feel complacent when I tell you these things. You still got this special place in my heart, and I'm don't mean to make space for you nor am I avoiding doing so. It's just how it is, and I'm sorry but that's how it is going to be - forever.

Well I met you at the blood bank, we were looking at the bags. Wondering if any of the colours, matched any of the names we knew on the tag.

Who needs that sentimental bullshit anyway? Takes more than just a memory to make me cry. And I'm happy just to sit here around a table with old friends, and see which one of us can tell the biggest lies.

There's no change, there's no pain

Leonardo Di Caprio, i have met your look-a-like, although you were French and we were in Railay, Thailand.

Watching Romeo and Juliet

I just genuinely forgave you, and I feel exceptionally great.

Ben, I am so happy I celebrated your birthday with you. I am also genuinely sorry, alright no, I'm not. I'm not going to give you birthday sex as Rosario says. Hahaha, but I'm still trying to understand why you make me so darn happy. You boy, my bestfriend I love you.