I am always wrong in some aspect, always. I'm a shit person, you think I'm incredibly great. Open your eyes and hear the world. There are more beautiful and amazing people out there in the world. Maybe you think I am fantastic because I try to be the best I can be and I don't stop trying and what is that? Typical and normality. I am the average human being, just like everybody else.
I wish I had a bungalow in my back yard.
I wish I had chinese for dinner tonight.
I wish I could cook well.
I wish I didn't fuck up.
I wish I didn't push you.
I wish I didn't do that.
I wish I could save money.
I wish I had my phone back.
I wish I didn't get so angry or upset about things.
I wish I could wake up to alarms.
I wish my dad wasn't such a cunt sometimes.
I wish everybody just fucked off.
I hate people
I wish I had chinese for dinner tonight.
I wish I could cook well.
I wish I didn't fuck up.
I wish I didn't push you.
I wish I didn't do that.
I wish I could save money.
I wish I had my phone back.
I wish I didn't get so angry or upset about things.
I wish I could wake up to alarms.
I wish my dad wasn't such a cunt sometimes.
I wish everybody just fucked off.
I hate people
Today, Steph and I were walking out of Safeway on Keilor Road when this older woman, around about her forties asked us if we were related. We said the typical answer, 'yep, we're twins'. She tried to act suprised and gave us a compliment saying, 'we have the best legs'. It was quite strange, and I now feel self-concious about my legs. Thanks lady, thanks.
You tell me you love me and you give me all these charming, prestine compliments. It feels that I am worth so much in your life, perhaps top six. It maybe you're putting it on because you have a heart of gold. But I don't know, you're not one up there, I love you and all but I don't have the heart to tell you to lay off. I mean, how could I even have the heart to not love you equally in return?
Today, I woke up at 7:22am.
Today, I started getting ready for school late; 8:30am.
Today, I skipped period one and two: enrichment science with Kladis.
Today, I went to Puckle Street.
Today, I bought Micaela a coffee and Claudia bought me a cupcake.
Today, I tricked Ben into thinking me and Jack are getting dirty to one another.
Today, Ben got 'eeeengry' or frustrated at me.
Today, I felt love once again.
Today, I rolled the quickest, most beautiful cigarette at lunch time.
Today, I realised; everybody has their own definition for each adjective whether it be broad or narrow-minded.
Today, I produced a fantastic drawing, expressing the meaning of negative and positive aspects and colours, foregrounds, backgrounds and layouts of drawn collages.
Today, I did my school work.
Today, I worked hard.
Today, I believed.
Today, I had faith in Chloe's recovery.
Today, I went straight home from school.
Today, I cleaned my bedroom and vacuumed it too.
Today, dad drove me to Micaela's house.
Today, we sat around in Micaela's sister's room.
Today, Zac, Natalia, Steph and I caught a cab home, via Maccas.
Today, I ordered the regular medium cheeseburger meal; cheeseburger with no pickles, double cheese and chicken sauce inside the burger and a mayo satchet on the side for my fries.
Today, dad bought an iPad.
Today, I got home at 12am.
Tomorrow, I will wake up and do the same thing again.
Today, I started getting ready for school late; 8:30am.
Today, I skipped period one and two: enrichment science with Kladis.
Today, I went to Puckle Street.
Today, I bought Micaela a coffee and Claudia bought me a cupcake.
Today, I tricked Ben into thinking me and Jack are getting dirty to one another.
Today, Ben got 'eeeengry' or frustrated at me.
Today, I felt love once again.
Today, I rolled the quickest, most beautiful cigarette at lunch time.
Today, I realised; everybody has their own definition for each adjective whether it be broad or narrow-minded.
Today, I produced a fantastic drawing, expressing the meaning of negative and positive aspects and colours, foregrounds, backgrounds and layouts of drawn collages.
Today, I did my school work.
Today, I worked hard.
Today, I believed.
Today, I had faith in Chloe's recovery.
Today, I went straight home from school.
Today, I cleaned my bedroom and vacuumed it too.
Today, dad drove me to Micaela's house.
Today, we sat around in Micaela's sister's room.
Today, Zac, Natalia, Steph and I caught a cab home, via Maccas.
Today, I ordered the regular medium cheeseburger meal; cheeseburger with no pickles, double cheese and chicken sauce inside the burger and a mayo satchet on the side for my fries.
Today, dad bought an iPad.
Today, I got home at 12am.
Tomorrow, I will wake up and do the same thing again.
A strange, homeless man had asked me for a single daisy. He loved flowers, I loved flowers, and wasn't it beautiful that our mutual appreciation could transcend our various differences and showhow bring us together?
Carl Watson: Think of the cigarette mutual appreciation we were talking about a few weeks back, something new? Never.
Carl Watson: Think of the cigarette mutual appreciation we were talking about a few weeks back, something new? Never.
It's hard rubbish season where I live, I bought home an old television from hard rubbish. Progressing to make the inside a fish tank so you can see the fish through the screen. Creative, I add. Dad's helping me take all the wires out because apparently, according to him; there's mercury and a vacuum tube, and he used to work with fixing computers back in the day. "It's the same shit". I cannot wait for my television fish tank and my room to be all cute and that.
Okay, I have this best friend; she claims she's mentally depressed, odds are; she probably is. You know, not the 'scarred by disturbing things or actions' sort of depressed, her mental intake is collapsing. It's despairing seeing somebody you absolutely adore and admire feel dismal about such important and priceless aspects of their life. The somber energy delivered by her presence and communication is absolutely disrupting me, I only care for her everything. I ask you one thing, my dear; grasp happiness and console the inner feeling of it, please.
Brilliant night I'd say. Fishbowls and sombrero's with the girlies at Taco Bill. Us being poor bitches and treasure our money, fucked off the main meal and went to maccas. Grabbed a dinner box, gave most of it to my good friend, Jake McKay and his friends.
We then made our way to Essendon station where Steph saved some man's life, there and then and we danced in a native way around a sombrero singing mexican tunes doing the jewish stance.
Now I'm at Monique's, just thinking about shit. A good night, a good night..
We then made our way to Essendon station where Steph saved some man's life, there and then and we danced in a native way around a sombrero singing mexican tunes doing the jewish stance.
Now I'm at Monique's, just thinking about shit. A good night, a good night..
"I'm actually proud of Benjamin Notar's and Brianna Daws' relationship, I love how they can just go back to eachother as if the walls around them are crashing down."
I dont understand how I feel about that but I feel something so unbelievably warm inside and I don't know why exactly just yet.
I dont understand how I feel about that but I feel something so unbelievably warm inside and I don't know why exactly just yet.
Fucking yeah Benny, it's working out even when I said it wouldn't.
Day 01 – Introduce yourself
Brianna Rae Daws - Bree, Breezie if you may.
15 years old, born on the 8th of May. Green eyes, blonde hair, fare skin. Twin of Stephanie and younger sister of Chloe, 18 yrs and daughter Steve and Victoria. Strathmore's my hood, 3041 represent, you know what I'm saying cunt? Basketball. Enough said?
Day 02 – Your first love
I think Ben..
Day 03 – Your parents
Stevie and Victoria.
Day 04 – What you ate today
Had Maccas twice.
Day 05 – Your definition of love
When time stops moving, when you need to hold your breath to think about the someone you apparently love.
Day 06 – Your day
LONG AND LOVELY.
Day 07 – Your best friend
Natalia and Monique.
Day 08 – A moment
Beautiful.
Day 09 – Your beliefs
No beliefs, take it how it is.
Day 10 – What you wore today
Leggings, knitted jumper and Ramones tee.
Day 11 – Your siblings
Stephanie and Chloe.
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Wallet, Cigarettes, Dragon, lighter, tissues, filters.
Day 13 – This week
Last week of holidays.
Day 14 – What you wore today
Already said it.
Day 15 – Your dreams
I dont ever remember my dreams. Although, when I was trying to sleep. I was running up this metal thing that was like metal slipperly slats and I had to grab the rails to keep up because it kept going steeper and steeper and there was millions of trees surrounding it and then I looked down and I happen to be vertical in the air. Then, all of a sudden, it transformed into a big, red plastic slide. The biggest in the world.
Then I was in reality because Steph was screaming.
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Liam fucking Hargreaves haha.
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Way too many.
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
This years was pretty good.
Day 19 – Something you regret
Stuff? I don't know.
Day 20 – This month
July.
Day 21 – Another moment
Has past.
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
People.
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
People.
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
People.
Day 25 – A first
time on a plane.
Day 26 – Your fears
Missing things. Not being able to move my legs. Heights. The sea bed.
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Phranang Cave Beach/Railay. Holy fuck I miss it.
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Friends from my old school.
Day 29 – Your aspirations
I want to be a writer or an artist. If not, a journalist.
Day 30 – One last moment
Never is a last moment?
Brianna Rae Daws - Bree, Breezie if you may.
15 years old, born on the 8th of May. Green eyes, blonde hair, fare skin. Twin of Stephanie and younger sister of Chloe, 18 yrs and daughter Steve and Victoria. Strathmore's my hood, 3041 represent, you know what I'm saying cunt? Basketball. Enough said?
Day 02 – Your first love
I think Ben..
Day 03 – Your parents
Stevie and Victoria.
Day 04 – What you ate today
Had Maccas twice.
Day 05 – Your definition of love
When time stops moving, when you need to hold your breath to think about the someone you apparently love.
Day 06 – Your day
LONG AND LOVELY.
Day 07 – Your best friend
Natalia and Monique.
Day 08 – A moment
Beautiful.
Day 09 – Your beliefs
No beliefs, take it how it is.
Day 10 – What you wore today
Leggings, knitted jumper and Ramones tee.
Day 11 – Your siblings
Stephanie and Chloe.
Day 12 – What’s in your bag
Wallet, Cigarettes, Dragon, lighter, tissues, filters.
Day 13 – This week
Last week of holidays.
Day 14 – What you wore today
Already said it.
Day 15 – Your dreams
I dont ever remember my dreams. Although, when I was trying to sleep. I was running up this metal thing that was like metal slipperly slats and I had to grab the rails to keep up because it kept going steeper and steeper and there was millions of trees surrounding it and then I looked down and I happen to be vertical in the air. Then, all of a sudden, it transformed into a big, red plastic slide. The biggest in the world.
Then I was in reality because Steph was screaming.
Day 16 – Your first kiss
Liam fucking Hargreaves haha.
Day 17 – Your favorite memory
Way too many.
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday
This years was pretty good.
Day 19 – Something you regret
Stuff? I don't know.
Day 20 – This month
July.
Day 21 – Another moment
Has past.
Day 22 – Something that upsets you
People.
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better
People.
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry
People.
Day 25 – A first
time on a plane.
Day 26 – Your fears
Missing things. Not being able to move my legs. Heights. The sea bed.
Day 27 – Your favorite place
Phranang Cave Beach/Railay. Holy fuck I miss it.
Day 28 – Something that you miss
Friends from my old school.
Day 29 – Your aspirations
I want to be a writer or an artist. If not, a journalist.
Day 30 – One last moment
Never is a last moment?
So, it's approximately quarter past four in the morning. We were drinking coffee out the back, showing each other a good time, appreciating the beauty in music and all that jazz. Out of no where Steph just pops this great idea in all of our enthused minds and says, 'we have a free house and we're drinking coffee... Dude'. We all suddenly pulled this ecstatic grin with evil in our eyes. We have now decided to make cocktails. Is this not the best 4:15am in the morning idea ever? OVER AND OUT.
OUR LATE NIGHT PICNIC AT 3AM, BEAUTIFUL
Explain what triggered your last kiss?
A goodbye.
Have you ever looked someone straight in the eyes and told them a lie?
No, I am not that much of a sad excuse.
Who was your crush in 5th grade?
Liam or Matt
About how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Hardly any. About 5?
Is your hair naturally straight?
Nope, wavy.
Do you wish anyone in particular was still in your life?
Yes, I do.
Are relationships ever really worth it?
Somedays for some people.
Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Big Mamma.
Who was the last person to text you?
Monique.
What's the weather like outside?
Pretty darn cold.
Where was the last place you bought something?
Gaffney Street milk bar, cigarettes.
Is there anyone you couldn't go a day without talking to?
Yes.
Did you sing at all today?
Absolutely rocked out to Faith - George Michael before.
A goodbye.
Have you ever looked someone straight in the eyes and told them a lie?
No, I am not that much of a sad excuse.
Who was your crush in 5th grade?
Liam or Matt
About how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Hardly any. About 5?
Is your hair naturally straight?
Nope, wavy.
Do you wish anyone in particular was still in your life?
Yes, I do.
Are relationships ever really worth it?
Somedays for some people.
Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
Big Mamma.
Who was the last person to text you?
Monique.
What's the weather like outside?
Pretty darn cold.
Where was the last place you bought something?
Gaffney Street milk bar, cigarettes.
Is there anyone you couldn't go a day without talking to?
Yes.
Did you sing at all today?
Absolutely rocked out to Faith - George Michael before.
What is your current desktop picture?
Our friends.
Is there anyone you're holding onto, even though you know you shouldn't?
Our friends.
Is there anyone you're holding onto, even though you know you shouldn't?
No siree.
Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Yeah!
Last time you swam in a pool?
Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Yeah!
Last time you swam in a pool?
Last weekend in Sydney.
Is there someone, that if they walked out of your life, you'd just give up?
No.
Have you ever made out with someone that had a tattoo?
Yeah.
Is the person you last texted single?
Yep.
Who did you last hang out with?
Monique, Steph and Natalia but just before that;
Is there someone, that if they walked out of your life, you'd just give up?
No.
Have you ever made out with someone that had a tattoo?
Yeah.
Is the person you last texted single?
Yep.
Who did you last hang out with?
Monique, Steph and Natalia but just before that;
Riley, Joel, Patrick, Benny, Zac and Rosie.
When will your next kiss take place?
Riley's couch.
When you're getting ready for something, do you listen to music?
Oh absolutely.
Kissed anyone with the name starting with a C, A, T, J or Z?
Yes.
Tell me something about the last person you kissed?
Absolutely love him.
When you're single is it alright to kiss random boys/girls?
Definately. Not really good if you're seeing somebody though.
What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night
Riley's couch.
When you're getting ready for something, do you listen to music?
Oh absolutely.
Kissed anyone with the name starting with a C, A, T, J or Z?
Yes.
Tell me something about the last person you kissed?
Absolutely love him.
When you're single is it alright to kiss random boys/girls?
Definately. Not really good if you're seeing somebody though.
What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night
Swimming!
Do you think age matters in relationships?
Not really.
Is there someone you can’t stop thinking about?
Yes.
Do your parents have a MySpace account?
No haha.
Who did you last ride in the car with under the age of 20?
Adrian, Georgia, Monique, Natalia and Steph.
Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?
Yeah.
Did you sleep alone last night?
I did, it was lovely. I missed my big bad bed.
Would you rather have your nose or tongue pierced?
I already have my tongue pierced, I am soon to get my nose pierced too!
Do you think age matters in relationships?
Not really.
Is there someone you can’t stop thinking about?
Yes.
Do your parents have a MySpace account?
No haha.
Who did you last ride in the car with under the age of 20?
Adrian, Georgia, Monique, Natalia and Steph.
Are you currently looking forward to tomorrow?
Yeah.
Did you sleep alone last night?
I did, it was lovely. I missed my big bad bed.
Would you rather have your nose or tongue pierced?
I already have my tongue pierced, I am soon to get my nose pierced too!
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